Unlocking Purpose and Healing: Athena Pitsikoulis' Journey of Faith and Transformation

In this powerful episode of Hope Unlocked, Kristin Kurtz sits down with Athena Pitsikoulis, an inspiring woman who has overcome tremendous adversity to step into her calling. Athena shares her journey from addiction and brokenness to finding her purpose in ministry, healing, and reconciliation. From a miraculous encounter with the Holy Spirit to her mission of restoring the orphaned spirit within Native American communities, Athena's story is one of redemption, transformation, and faith in God's timing.

In this episode, we explore themes of healing, overcoming trauma, and the deep call to serve others despite life's challenges. Athena also discusses the powerful vision God gave her and how she's now walking in her destiny, spreading love and hope where it's needed most.

Athena's contact info:
Email - athenafreedom@gmail.com

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PayPal: Athena Pitsikoulis
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Chapters

• 0:16 Journey to Redemption and Freedom
• 9:45 Vision for Speaking Life
• 22:50 Healing and Divine Purpose
• 32:13 Embracing Redemption and Finding Purpose
• 45:32 Journey of Redemption and Purpose
• 56:10 Trust in Divine Provision and Purpose
• 1:05:34 Healing, Sealing, and Abiding Journeys
• 1:09:14 Miracle of Healing and Surrender

Transcript

Speaker 1: 0:16

Welcome to the Hope Unlocked podcast. I'm your host, kristen Kurtz, and I'm also the founder of New Wings Coaching. I help and empower wildhearted and adventurous women of faith feeling caged and stuck, unlock their true purpose and potential, break free from limitations and thrive with confidence, courage and hope. If you're curious to learn more about coaching with me, head to newwingscoachingnet and be sure to explore the show notes for ways to connect with me further. Get ready to dive in as we uncover empowering keys and insights in this episode. So tune in and let's unlock hope together. Welcome to the Hope Unlocked podcast. I'm Kristen Kurtz, your host. I pray this episode is like a holy IV of hope for your soul. Please help me.

Speaker 1: 0:55

Welcome Athena Pizzicoulis to the show. I'm very excited to have her on today. If you've listened for a long time, you've heard many amazing stories of mostly men and some women who are following the call that god has on their life, and a lot of them are pretty wild and crazy stories. So, um, when I was hearing athena share with me some of the ways that god is literally moving her in this time, I just really wanted her to share her story, partly because of what she's walked through and where she's walking to right now. So, athena, would you be open to sharing a little bit more about yourself?

Speaker 2: 1:35

Hi, yes, thank you so much for having me. This is such an honor and, yes, I'm excited to just share with you what's on my heart, from what the Lord is showing me, because as I see others sharing, I see that you know we serve the same God, the same Holy Spirit, and so there's a common thread that I that I tend to notice. And we mentioned shifting and there's definitely a shift going on. I mean, we obviously know that it's in the political realm, but we know that it begins in the spirit realm first and the prayers of the saints. In these past four years and everything that has transpired, there's been a shift to a shift. Now we're back to another shift and it's interesting when I was really young and I mean I was born in 1971, but it's something that Holy Spirit even showed me when I was young about there was a massive shift in our parents' generation from like the Beaver, cleaver kind of way of life to boom the sixts and 70s to where it was completely opposite of that and it just went. It went way far to the other direction and then I believe it kind of went the pendulum swim, you know swung back to the middle and it's just kind of been swinging, trying to find its place.

Speaker 2: 3:01

I think, um, since then, and I kind of really feel that in this season and this next season that we're, that we're stepping into that, that it's going to truly come right to right in the middle, finding its sweet spot to where we can all like kind of flow, cause something Holy Spirit's been sharing with me is that he's, he's about to do a baptism of love. We baptize by water, we get baptized by fire with the Holy Ghost, but there's more. There's a baptism of love, because we know it's the goodness and kindness of God that leads men to repentance and so when people get a revelation of his love through a supernatural encounter with Holy Spirit, with Jesus, with the Father, that their hard hearts will crack open and those stony hearts will become beating hearts of flesh again. That will beat for him, because the world has really told humankind and humanity that there is no God. And he is this.

Speaker 2: 4:06

I think he's been very poorly represented, even by the church, specifically some denominations. He's been very poorly represented and I keep hearing him say I'm looking and I'm searching for people to represent me well, to share with others my true nature, my true character, and Jesus was that example of the ways of the Father. It's what he said. He came to show us the ways of the Father in the flesh to say, okay, this is what he meant when he said you know and he broke it all down really easy for us Love him and love each other other.

Speaker 2: 4:44

And again, it's always coming down. It comes down to love and you know. Then people want to take it to the extreme and be like, oh well, you can't just preach love and you know, without sin, and like people know about their sin but they don't know their identity. And once people really figure out that their sons and daughters of the most high joint heirs with jesus christ, sons and daughters of the most high joint heirs with Jesus Christ, sons and daughters of the King, that once people realize their identity, their true identity, then everything else will fall into place and other things will fall off. Because we'll want to serve him, we'll want to, that reverential fear will set in to where you want to you know, be holy, as he is holy, because you'll just crave it.

Speaker 2: 5:28

And I know that to be true for myself, having been saved my whole life I wrestled with the identity part never really feeling like I was worthy of love because of such a traumatic childhood and from my mother, from two stepfathers that were extremely abusive, and being an only child and always alone. It was always kind of me and God you know. But the enemy also had a lot of time to torment me and tell me how unworthy I was of love. And then you know, when you don't know, you don't know, and you know you come into agreement with things that you don't know, that you're coming into agreement with. And next thing, you know there's a stronghold and you're bound.

Speaker 2: 6:12

And I had to wrestle through addiction, suicide, domestic violence, attempts, failed marriages, like everything the enemy could have done to throw at me to get me to not serve the lord. He threw and there were seasons where I, I fell and but then I he always picked me back up. And when he redeems, he restores and, you know, through a miraculous encounter of me just surrendering, one day, the day after christmas 2018, he delivered me of a drug and alcohol addiction that had me really bound and, um, I've been free ever since, and that's over six years ago, and so I'm so grateful and with that testimony I get to help others say, hey, what he's done for me will do for you. And you know, we overcome by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony, and so that's what I'm out doing.

Speaker 1: 7:06

Yeah, well, I love, I love what you said at in the beginning about like that cracking open moment, Right. So what? What did that look like for you? Specifically, you mentioned that you had an encounter in 20. What did what look like? Yeah, that your encounter with Jesus back when you're.

Speaker 2: 7:25

You mean the cracking open of the heart. What did what look like? Yeah, your encounter with Jesus back when you were a believer.

Speaker 1: 7:30

You mean the cracking open of the heart I literally saw hearts.

Speaker 2: 7:35

They were heart-shaped inside people's chests and they were stone, and then the beating heart of flesh would be so strong that it would crack open that stony heart and those pieces would just fall off and I could literally see a red beating heart of flesh. Because that love, you know, perfect love, casts out fear and you know, fear is usually why we harden our hearts um fear and unbelief, you know disbelief, and so, yeah, that's how I saw it.

Speaker 1: 8:09

Yeah. So your encounter though back in 2018, like did you have kind of a rock bottom moment? I know I experienced that back when I was about 25, before I got saved from addiction myself, but what was that like for you?

Speaker 2: 8:22

Well, you know, the first time I got sober was I was 20 years old in 1991. I had gotten sober. I left New York. I was born and raised in Queens, new York. My mother's Native American and Spanish and my father's Greek, and he was never really in my life, but he had gotten into an accident and was living in Atlanta, georgia, and wanted to get to know me and kind of make amends, and so I moved there and I started going to meetings with him and I ended up getting sober. But I remember standing before the Lord in prayer and saying I'm going to be the one that breaks this on both sides of my family. You know, both sides are messed up I'm going to be the one to break this. My mother had 20 miscarriages I'm the only one she ever had and my father had three sons after me, but it did kind of end with me. And then I stayed sober for about five years and then went back out in the world for 21 long, hard years and then kind of teetered back and the Lord released me into ministry in 2010, where I first was able to preach at my church in Southern Oregon and then I fell again on my face really hard for eight years, and then that's when he delivered me in 2018.

Speaker 2: 9:45

Um, so it was, yeah, it was. It was Christmas night. I was partying with two gay friends of mine you, you know not anything, just two guys that I hung out with and we were just partying all night and then I had just gotten out of a. In November of 2018, I was living in Colorado and I had been living with a guy that every few months he would go into a blackout, drunk and beat up whoever was near me and it was near him and it was usually me. And this last time he like cracked my ribs, busted my face and like I mean, like it was, I had a shoe mark like on my ribs, like you could see where he was like stomping on me. It was pretty, just pretty bad.

Speaker 2: 10:29

And so my dad flew to colorado and we drove my car, loaded it up and drove back to georgia and I was still kind of and I was still drinking. I was still, but I was just so beat up and bruised, but but I started a job and and I was like I was partying that Christmas day and then that next day I went back to where I was staying and I was still kind of a little buzzed up, but I just was, like you know, I went out, I was standing outside and I was like God, I know you, you know me and I know this is not the way that I should be honoring your the day that we honor your birthday and the way that we recognize you. I know that you have more and I just need you to take this from me. And he instantly took me in that, just that simple little prayer. It wasn't like much, it wasn't like it wasn't theatrical, it was just very much like I'm done. It was a place of complete surrender to where I was. Like I'm done.

Speaker 2: 11:26

And and he took it. And that next day, when I was really sober, on the 27th, I went and found a meeting in the basement of a church and began the rebuilding process. And here I am as he's rebuilding me, he's he's trusting me with more and more and more as I continue to just stay faithful, to pursuing him, seeking his face on my face and seeking the ways of Jesus so I can just be more like him. So, because when I was 20, when I got sober, the first time is when he gave me the vision of what I would be doing, and it's what I'm doing now, 33 years later. And so he is faithful.

Speaker 1: 12:04

Wow. Well, are you open to sharing a little bit about that today, because that's a big part of what's up. Oh my gosh, she needs to share, especially since gosh, 33 years. He gave you the vision. If you want to share about that, and then you know, any of us.

Speaker 1: 12:22

This might be for somebody. Every time we do a podcast, it's like for the one, so I believe that one person needs to hear this for sure, and many more. But many of us have some visions that maybe the Lord gave us decades ago and they've yet to be fulfilled, and there can be a sense of longing, and I like to call it the weight training. It can be really challenging, so I don't know if you experienced any of that, knowing what was to come, but maybe you could share a little bit about that as you tell us what this vision was.

Speaker 2: 12:53

And I love that you called it the weight training, because I assume you're meaning W-A-I-T.

Speaker 1: 12:57

I am, because it truly is the wordsmith right, because it truly is.

Speaker 2: 13:05

it truly is in the waiting. That that's where all the gold is, you know, that's where we, that's where the refiners fire, the secret plays the dark night of the soul, that's where it all happens, where he burns off the dross to bring forth the gold in the waiting. So yeah, when I was 20, when I had moved to Atlanta and I told God I was, that was, this is what I was going to do. I was going to be the bloodline breaker, cause I mean, I knew the Lord. I went to Sunday school, but my, you know, my mom used to just take me to church.

Speaker 2: 13:37

We didn't go as a family. I'm the only one in my family, on both sides, that does serve the Lord. Nobody, none of my aunts, uncles, cousins, I mean actually the opposite. I have two cousins who actively practice witchcraft that I pray for, and there's a lot of generational stuff. You know, there's incest, there was addiction, there's just violence, there's just all kinds of just generational. You know that that I that I told the Lord I would stand in the gap for and I didn't know what I was signing up for at the time. But and what?

Speaker 2: 14:11

it would cost, but it's, it definitely costs. But um, um. So I I was on my knees one night just praying before bed and I was awake and I was praying and then, all of a sudden, the Lord took me into this vision. To where I was. I came upon this big group of people. There was just all these people and they were just very angry and their clothes were ripped, their clothes were dirty, the grass was dead, the trees were dead and everybody was just kind of at each other and it was just very just sad.

Speaker 2: 14:43

And I walked up and I had a couple of people with me and somebody approached me and said you need to go over there and say something, and there was like this podium of stones. And I said in the vision, and I said me, I don't know what to say. And then in the vision, holy Spirit said go and I will tell you what to say. So I went and I said what? Holy spirit just opened my mouth and holy spirit spoke and I still remember um most of what he had me say in that vision and which he asked me to keep um under wraps until he's ready to release that. But, um, I wrote it down, which those journals have subsequently been lost, but we'll see if they resurface. But, um, so I said what I, whatever holy spirit, said through me and then, all of a sudden, like the trees came to life, the grass came to life, the people got clean, their clothes got whole, joy came and and they were just. It was just so. It was just a complete paradigm shift.

Speaker 2: 15:49

And, um, then I came out of the vision and I said, lord, what was that? And he said I want you to speak life. And he said, um, I'm gonna send you to every tongue, tribe and nation in the us, to the native american tribes of theS, and I want you to tell them. I love them Because I had wrestled with this most of my younger years, my grandmother being Native American, and she helped raise me and she would tell me a lot of terrible things that would happen. And I come from a very small tribe in Northern California and I'm like Lord, you want to use me Like somebody that's like not even you know it's you know, got a blood low blood quantum and from a no name tribe.

Speaker 2: 16:35

You want me to go like talk to native people about you, like me, and he's just said yeah, and I was like okay, and I believed him. And you know, my first husband, my second husband, my third husband, I had three failed marriages, like I said, and you know two of them were Native American. I lived on their reservations and I just spent a lot of time in the Native culture in my early twenties, thirties, forties, and in my early twenties I had attended. I was living in Atlanta, georgia, and I attended Charles Stanley's church for four years or so and I really got fed as an adult. I really got fed with solid teaching. But I would also witness how the Holy Spirit would just brood and minister to everyone individually with the same word that was being delivered. And I was just so in awe of that. I said, lord, that is so beautiful. I can see you moving in this sanctuary, I can see you touching everybody and people are receiving it. And I was just so in awe of that. And so life went on and, like I said, I kind of fell off for a while, but I had left Atlanta, georgia in 1996 and drove to California where my tribe is, and they immediately invited me to be a part of the tribal council, which I was like I don't know.

Speaker 2: 17:57

I was like no way, I'm 25 years old, I don't know anything, I don't even know anybody, and they're like it's OK, we know your grandmother, it's fine. I was like okay, and so I kind of just started learning about tribal politics and how it works, and later on in years they voted me in as the vice chairwoman of the tribe, where I really got heavy into how the politics work, and especially in native america okay and it's, it's, it's well, we know it's so flawed.

Speaker 2: 18:26

Anytime anybody seems like there's a curse on government. You know that when people get into government positions they get kind of. They just change, and I was determined not to you know, and I wasn't going to play the games that they were playing, because it's like we're going to do the right thing, we're public servants, we're going to do right by the people.

Speaker 2: 18:47

so, needless to say, to get very far no, you know, because, because the resistance was so strong and what I was dealing with the chairman and myself were were, you know, more conservative um people and the rest of the council was more kind of liberal. And we were in california dealing with very liberal politicians who had been there. You know, boxer and feinstein had been there decades and they were not going to let go of their control but, you know, wanted to use us for certain things and and I wouldn't allow it, that's amazing that you took a stand.

Speaker 1: 19:28

I love that you did that. Not everybody is willing to do what you did, yeah.

Speaker 2: 19:33

So fast forward how I got to where I'm at right now in 2022. So how I got to where I'm at right now in 2022, april or sorry, august 19th 2022, I was living in Naples, florida with. I had moved back there. I'd always moved back and forth because that's where my mother had lived since like 94. I think she moved there.

Speaker 2: 20:04

That's where my mother had lived since like 94, I think she moved there, okay, so I'd always went back and forth, always seasons, just to be with her, and I had been there nine months. And that morning I was on my way to work and I was online to get coffee and through the drive-thru my mother was in the hospital, right to the left of me, directly across from the Dunkin' Donuts where I was going, because I used to get I was a general manager in the restaurant business and I usually get my staff munchkins and get myself a coffee before work and Holy Spirit fell on me and I just started praying for my mother. It was just an in and out procedure. She was getting, I had my hand pointed, you know, towards the hospital and the Holy Spirit just fell and I started just praying, praying in tongues over her and you know just whatever Holy Spirit wanted to pray. I was just praying and it was so intense and then I heard so loud and clear Holy God say. I heard the Father say my goodness and mercy are going to follow you all the days of your life.

Speaker 2: 21:04

And I was leaving the next day for vacation and everything was good, like I was had a job again after 2020 and all the lockdowns and everything had been through, like things were starting to get, you know, seem like getting a little better, and I was, you know, making. My mother and I were really at a good place of healing through all the pain of childhood and working through forgiveness. And so, by the time I got to the speaker to order my coffee, my stepfather called and said my mother had passed, and so I went up there and, you know, I stayed with her body until they came for her and you know there was a lot of hurt from childhood and I won't get into that right now but what her face was like, she was like in shock. I don't think she expected to go that day because it was supposed to just be an In-N-Out procedure, and her face was pale, like her mouth was in shock, her eyes, like it was. She looked pale, it was just awful.

Speaker 2: 22:19

So I just started just rubbing her head and, you know, talking to her and telling her I love her and that I forgive her, and asking her for forgiving me for not being forgiving, and just whatever needed to be said was said, and like I literally watched her transition into peace, like her mouth relaxed, her face relaxed color came back like it was almost a smile on her face. Like she went, I watched her transition into peace and it was a really beautiful thing and so so that was in the middle of 2022. And in that timeframe from there until now, the end of the year, I had I had um, gotten plantar fasciitis, and if you've ever had that, it's the most excruciating pain ever.

Speaker 2: 23:04

It goes from your feet to your eyeballs with force and it's not that no oh my goodness, it's and that was right after your mom passed well, it was kind of happening during it, but I was just like you know, just suck it up. And, like you know, yeah, I was like, yeah, you're tough, you know. I was kind of raised like, oh, you broke your leg, walk it off, you know yeah, gone, girl my grandmother was an rn, but that would be her answer.

Speaker 2: 23:30

You know she's a tough lady and so, um, I kept praying. I was like, lord, please heal, please heal me or remove me, because this is awful. I would be in literal tears, especially first thing in the morning. I was running a restaurant. I was on my feet 12 hours a day and you don't sit because the pain was so bad and I was like, oh my gosh, I couldn't wait to get off of them.

Speaker 2: 24:00

So the Lord kept saying, continue to glean, because you're going to own the field. And I was like okay, and I kept going, I kept going and then that, following February, february 10th of the following year, in 23, I heard the Lord loud and clear and he said, um, put down the plow and pick up your mantle. And I knew what that meant. I knew that it was time for me to step back into ministry and because, like I said, the first time that I had preached was in 2010. And this was now, you know, 13 years later. And the 13 was kind of significant. It was the amount. It was the same amount of years that Joseph went from the pit to the palace. Kind of significant. It was the amount.

Speaker 2: 24:40

It was the same amount of years that Joseph was um, went from the pit to the palace was 13 years and um and the Lord was showing me that, and, and so I said, okay, lord, I trust you, and I resigned from my position. It was making almost six figures and um had three bank accounts, had money's that can you, can I just ask?

Speaker 1: 25:02

really quickly, like. So he said. Basically he said like pick up your mantle. How long was it between that word from him and you resigning from your job?

Speaker 2: 25:14

oh, that same day I was in so much pain because I had been praying. I was like lord, like heal me or remove me. Like that was my answer. It was like it's time, like it's time you can, you can step down now okay, gotcha and it was so significant because that's also when the asbury revival started breaking out.

Speaker 2: 25:35

Oh yeah, because I had a pretty powerful encounter with that, because that was in the beginning of of of this process that he took me through. I resigned, I gave my two weeks notice and, you know, I worked it out Still good terms with my bosses and I was like I got money saved. The Lord, you know it's good, it's fine, like everything's going to be fine. I hear you, lord, I trust you. I know your voice. I know like this is a big deal for me to be doing this at an apartment. I have car payment, I bills you know, but I know I heard him.

Speaker 2: 26:07

Then he had me so a big seed into a ministry. And I was like are you sure, lord? And he said yeah, and then. And then he said in march to go to um, serve on mario murillo's um salvation team at his prayer meeting in Bakersfield, california. And I said, are you sure, lord? And like two unbelievable confirmations came back to back. I said okay, bought a plane ticket, got a room, went there and then he said now go to Ocala. So after that Mario Murillo was doing a meeting in Ocala, florida. So I went from California to Florida and served back to back on his team at his meetings and, of course, amazing things happened. People prophesied and it was just amazing.

Speaker 2: 26:50

It ended up being nine months of me being in the secret place with the Father on my face, in a pool of tears and snot, where he literally healed every single open wound that I ever had and dealt with things that were deep root issues, to where I would wake up every morning and something else would come to mind, something that's been a stumbling block, and I say, okay, lord, I'm not getting out from this place until this is healed. Today. I'm not taking this with me, not one more day. I am not letting you go till you bless me. And it was that I was that my heels were like dug in and I'd lay prostrate in my bed, put on a worship song, and just lay there until whatever Holy Spirit needed to do to heal it. And I remember one time, sitting in the father's lap and I was telling him how bad this one incident hurt and how badly it hurt. And you know his lap and I was telling him how bad this one incident hurt and how badly it hurt. You know something my first stepfather used to. He used to physically torture me while he would molest me when I was a kid, and that memory used to really haunt me. And so I was laying in his lap telling him how much it hurt, and he was just holding me and he said Jesus, come here. And Jesus came over and put his hand on me, on my heart, and he healed those memories and that wound. And I learned to plead and apply the shed blood of jesus on my conscious and subconscious mind to heal even the memories of of the trauma that I had endured. And holy spirit would come behind it and seal it so that wound could never be opened again and that and that kind of started as I was.

Speaker 2: 28:25

Cause I was, I had my prayer chair and every morning I would get up and I would get in my prayer chair and get in my word and I would come out of my room and it'd be like eight hours later and I had just been studying all day. He would give me sermons. I have just he would just give me sermon after sermon with titles and scriptures. It was just amazing how it was just flowing and flowing and flowing. It was just like constant. He'd say let's go take a walk. And I would go take walks on the beach and I would find heart shells and I was finding hearts everywhere and so I knew just continue in this place. And then one encounter was I kind of saw this self-deliverance thing I had done in 2021, when everything was kind of locked down.

Speaker 2: 29:05

I was living in Georgia and I went through Robert Henderson's teaching of the courts of heaven and I had some amazing encounters going through that teaching. But the Lord said this particular day that we were going to go to the Supreme Court of Heaven because there were some things that needed to be dealt with. And so I was standing in my room. He had me lay all this stuff on my bed, was like my family tree, it was like some paperwork, a map of the United States, just all these things. He had me strategically lay out on my bed and he took me up into the courts of heaven. And, mind you, in this time I was having encounter, encounter with that Asbury revival, as I mentioned. That was the beginning of it. Like I was like Lord, can I go? And he said no, I want you to stay here. And then the first live stream that they did, I put it on and I started making a sandwich in my kitchen and Holy Spirit fell on me and like I got an impartation from Kentucky all the way in Florida through just the live stream, you know, cause we don't have to physically be there to receive and it was just like things like that were happening constantly. Just, it was encounter to encounter, glory to glory, absolutely.

Speaker 2: 30:18

But this courts of heaven encounter was it was for three hours where I was standing in my room and I saw myself in the throne room in the courts of heaven and the father was in front of me. On his throne, to my right, was Jesus as, like my attorney, holy Spirit was to the left of me reminding me of things that needed to be dealt with, because the enemy was over there in the corner, um, accusing me. Remember, she did this, and that's what he does night and day, just as accuses, accuses, accuses. And if he has legal right, I mean it's it's on the books. And so the the father had my books open and all this stuff was. He backed it up by scripture and so I have all that documented. But, um, cause, I was journaling this whole journey. I've been journaling for years, but, um, this is all journaled.

Speaker 2: 31:10

Um, and so, in this courts of heaven encounter, you know my books were open, and either Holy spirit would say we need to deal with this, with this bloodline you know, it was like all four bloodlines of you know my parents, you know my mom and dad and their parents. It was dealing with things with their bloodlines and whatever, whatever it was and or the enemy would say, well, she did this and she did that, and you know. And so she, the father, would ask Jesus, you know what do you say? And Jesus, as our attorney and our advocate, every single accusation that the enemy threw and every single thing that needed to be dealt with. Jesus's answer was the same every time and it was my blood is sufficient, my grace is sufficient. The father would take a stamp like a, like a stamp and like, stamp it in the blood and stamp my books forgiven, not guilty, full pardon, case, dismissed and quitted just every single accusation, everything the enemy threw, or every bloodline curse or anything.

Speaker 2: 32:13

Because, remember, I said when I was 20 I was going to be the one. Well, it happened in this secret, in the secret place, on my face, in this encounter where I was actually standing be the one. Well, it happened in this secret, in the secret place, on my face, in this encounter where I was actually standing there for three hours. This went on and it was every accusation, everything was done, and then at the end I heard the father say there's, there's nothing left on the docket, and it was like three hours later and um, and then it was like kind of like bailiff, take him away. You know the enemy like now he has a gag order and restraining order, he can't say anything. Everything else from here on out is a false accusation, and which the enemy is still trying to work through others to throw false accusations at me. But you know, I mean, yeah, I remained focused on on the goal and that fear of man, but and I'm still kind of working that out but you know, everything's a process, right?

Speaker 2: 33:06

and so at the end of that it was amazing. I went out into my living room. I saw that it had been three hours. I felt like it was like an hour, but it was three hours and I was like whoa.

Speaker 2: 33:15

So I went back into my room to kind of like get things, because they had me praying over the United States, the whole map, like I was putting my hand over the whole US, because in about 2005, the Lord had given me a vision while I was in church one day in Oregon and I saw all these sparks that were strategically going all throughout the United States and then all at once they just all ignited and consumed the whole country.

Speaker 2: 33:43

And I saw that it is like god, like strategically placing hubs or whatever, um, throughout the us, and all at once it was going to ignite for like a revival and, um, I was like wow, and so I had been praying over the US and so I went back into my room and then immediately I was back into the that it was like files and he said that's the recompense pile, that is everything that the enemy stole, and I rule in your favor you'll get back everything the enemy stole.

Speaker 2: 34:29

And it was pretty huge. I didn't realize how much had been stolen from me but my, for my innocence, for my youth, to everything that had been stolen inheritances, physical, you know, monetary inheritances, I mean things that have been stolen and from the enemy, by the enemy, marriages, everything. My womanhood was taken when I was 17, a boyfriend had given me something and it took my womanhood, and so that was another wound that the Lord healed. So it was just I mean, I'm gonna have to write the book about it because there were so many encounters on how the lord healed me in that secret place. That was nine months of like, amazing, and of course nine months, you know, and that's where we birth things you know.

Speaker 2: 35:14

So that ended in um, that was from what I say february, that started. February, march, april, may, june, july, february. Well, in the interim, I ended up losing everything. At the end of that, I lost my apartment, I ended up getting evicted. I was like lord, are you kidding me? Like I had no money, I pawned stuff. I was like trying to hold on. I was like lord, I know that I heard you and I know that I'm hearing you and you're telling me to just, you know, wait and like, praise him in the waiting room, praise you in the waiting room, as I learned in james one, you know where patience, you know. Let it have its perfect work, you know. But praise him in the waiting room.

Speaker 2: 35:50

And yes, and so I ended up getting evicted and a beautiful couple from my church allowed me. They had this condo that nobody was living in, on a golf course, and they let me move in there. My church paid the rent for the first couple of months. Well, the following March in 2024 of last year, an opportunity arose for me to go to all the tribes of the US and start ministering, which is what the Lord showed me when I was 20. And so I left South Florida March 25th, which was a significant day for me, and drove to Northern California by myself, and the first place I got to preach is where I left broken, where I had first preached in 2010. And everybody from my congregation, including my old pastor, everybody was there and I did not plan that God did, and they didn't even live there anymore.

Speaker 2: 36:49

And they just so happened to be in town, and I mean, it was where I left broken and embarrassed and in shame because I fell back into addiction, like I said, after I had been released to breach and God brought me back, redeemed and restored and ministering and telling people like, look what he did Look what he's done.

Speaker 2: 37:12

And in that time, in 2024, from March till November of last year, I drove the United States. I went to California, oregon, arizona, oklahoma, back to Arizona with the Navajo people. I was in Oklahoma with the Comanche and Kiowa people and I was so. But the first place he sent me was to my own people, to my own tribe, and so it was just so amazing, I got to bring my mother's ashes home that was the first order of business when I got to California, because that's what she wanted and released her ashes at the base of Mount Shasta and this water that comes out of a rock and it feeds this little, this little Creek, and then it ends up going to the Sacramento river. But, um, I was able to release her ashes that way and it was just so orchestrated, all by God. So I know his, it was, it was all him.

Speaker 2: 38:07

It was just me going in complete faith and trusting him and um and it and it launched me into my destiny and it launched me into my ministry. And then in November I went to I think it was August that Million Women Prayer Meeting in DC.

Speaker 1: 38:25

Yes.

Speaker 2: 38:27

And then it was September.

Speaker 1: 38:30

October.

Speaker 2: 38:32

Yeah, it was October 12th because it was Pentecost Day and that was amazing and I met some great people. And then the Lord said to go back to Florida because that's where I was living and where I was registered to vote. He said go back and vote and rest for the month of November. By the time I got back I was invited by one of the elders I had met on the Rosebud Reservation in South Dakota to come and help her plant a church and co-pastor with her. So I rested for the month of November and in December I left and came back to South Dakota and that's where I'm at now. So it came full circle and he and and it's like I'm just getting started after all that I feel like I'm 54 years old and that process was was 33 years from when I was 20 to 53 to when he launched me. So now I'm going to be 54 in March and I feel like I'm just getting started. And now I'm here and I've been asked to minister at the biggest church in town and I just started a woman's Bible study and then a night of prayer where we'll just be just doing prayer and worship, you know, just praying, because it's it's a very hard.

Speaker 2: 39:44

Reservation. The crime here, the addiction, the abuse, just the poverty, it's, it's, it's. They need the, they need the baptism of love that the Lord has been talking to me about. They need it very badly here, and so I believe I was sent here for that, for such a time as this, and it's just going to help ignite here and wherever he sends me after this. You know, I know it's a temporary assignment. I'm not, I don't believe that he wants me here for good, but at least for now this is where I am and I'm just trusting him for provision. I don't have a job where I am and I'm just trusting him for provision. I don't have a job, I don't have many people sowing into my ministry, but I do have the Lord and he provides and he protects, and I haven't been hungry yet, so I'm good exactly well, one of the things that you shared you know part of, even you know leaving your job back in.

Speaker 1: 40:38

It was 2023 2023. You know, you said, like you're, I'm sure you said I think you're in the midst of saying that you were, you know, making six figures and you know doing well like in the world for yourself.

Speaker 1: 40:53

Right, I literally just did a post about you know I've connected with a lot of people around the world and there are a lot of us, including myself, that left, you know, really good, paying great benefits. You know what would most Like full benefits. Yeah, you know, like this is a promising it's. This is the most promising job ever.

Speaker 1: 41:18

right, it's gonna sustain me until I retire someday exactly I don't know about you, but, um, I I just saw a lot of people walking around kind of like those stones. They were dead, they were not living the fullness of their destiny and I mean, including myself, I got kind of roped into a lot of that, thinking like this is safe, right. So those that nine months of you know, taking that time to be almost I'm just seeing like almost, like Esther, where she had that time of preparation to then go into that you know destiny moment as the queen, right. But if she would have looked back, I imagine, as a maybe as a child, and the things that she went through, she probably didn't see herself stepping into the places that she stepped into.

Speaker 1: 42:11

So you know, there's just so many of us that have taken some like wild and crazy what would the world say Crazy risks that don't make sense. So I would love to hear from you, like on the other side of that. I know you've probably encountered a lot of people like me that are like but what if? And what's your plan B? And how do you stay anchored and focused on what I like to call your?

Speaker 2: 42:40

but God said um, Well, it's interesting that you use the Esther analogy because actually that is part of it. You know she was sent for such a time as this for her people and I believe the Lord, even though I come from a no-name tribe. The Lord sent me to the Native American people of the US to help reconcile that relationship. And in that secret place, in that season, the Lord had connected me with a ministry called Orphan Heart International, and Esther was an orphan and I learned about having the orphan spirit and I learned that that was a spirit that was oppressing me. It's not so much a possessive spirit as it is an oppressive spirit and it keeps you out of your true identity and knowing who you are and whose you are.

Speaker 1: 43:33

Yes.

Speaker 2: 43:34

And so when I got connected with that ministry, they're the ones that actually ordained me as an evangelist and were part of the ones to help send me out under their covering of that ministry as um, because they had, um, they had like a concert at my church and it was like these two guys, um, and they did this concert in my church and I was like, oh, cool, you know, whatever. So the guy, the president his name is James Burkhart, the president of Orphan Heart Ministry got up and started talking and I had told my pastor before this, like a couple of months before, and I said you know, my heart is really for the Native people. You know, I just I'm looking to get connected to kind of step into ministry again. And so he was, like, you know, trying to introduce me to a couple of people here and there. Nothing really stuck. And then these guys come and do this concert and they came from Africa and the president James got up to talk and he said he said, you know, we're Orphan Heart International and this ministry was started in the nineties by a woman named Janet Helms through the Rwandan genocide and the Lord really downloaded her ways to help reconcile the tribes and reconcile families and deal with the orphan spirit that a lot of them had had, because they were literal orphans but also spiritual orphans. And it really resonated with me. And then he said so we're expanding our ministry from North America to the United States, specifically to Native Americans. And my belly leaped and the Holy Spirit just did a big old flip and I was like that's it, this is it, and so we just connected and our relationship started growing and it was out of that connection that really my ministry was kind of I don't want to say birthed, but pushed into, you know, pushed along, so to speak.

Speaker 2: 45:32

Because I did have an encounter one time with the Holy Spirit in that secret place where I was walking. The Lord had delivered me from smoking. I had been delivered from alcohol and drugs, but I still smoked and had this powerful encounter from alcohol and drugs, but I still smoked. And I had this powerful encounter. But the Lord stopped me as I was walking in my living room and he said what you're carrying is breach, like it's upside down. And then all of a sudden I saw like I watched it flip, and I've never been pregnant in my life. I watched my belly flip. I could see like hands and feet moving and I was like I was watching it turn around and get into proper position.

Speaker 2: 46:12

And I went and laid down in my bedroom and I was laying there and then I was just like Whoa, lord, what was that? And I could see a snake wrapped around the inside of my head. It was coiled up on around my head and I was like, oh, you got to go, in Jesus name. I was like, get out. And I it started to leave, but it was like taking its time. I was like, no, you got to go now. And I started, like in the spirit, like pulling it, and I was like I knew I needed to see the tail of this thing and I was just pulling and pulling, and pulling and pulling and finally I saw the tail of it and everything in the room got bright again. I was like, ah, I was like Lord, what was that? And he said that, um, cause, right before that, I had broken the last two cigarettes I had. I said I'm done. He said I've taken it from you before and he said you need to lay it down. And so I broke the last two cigarettes, flushed it down the toilet and then came out from the bathroom and that's when this belly flip happened.

Speaker 2: 47:06

And then, right after that, this encounter. And I said, lord, what was that? And he said when you were 14, when you first started smoking, you made an unholy agreement. You said that you'll probably always smoke until you get pregnant and that'll be the thing that'll make you quit.

Speaker 2: 47:23

Well, as I shared, I ended up being barren at 17. And that was such a wound because I always just wanted to be a wife and a mother and it was such a deep wound in combination with that unholy agreement I made. It kept me bound to those cigarettes and it had a stronghold on my mind to where, every time I tried to quit, it felt like my skin was being ripped off of me. It was such a battle. It was like you delivered me a drugs and alcohol and in an instant, and I can't get the let go of these cigarettes. You know, and and I haven't smoked since, and that was february 27th of that same year of 23. So it was like, right after he released me, to release my job in 2010, or february, 10th, februaryth, he removed this smoking and I haven't smoked since. It'll be two years this February.

Speaker 1: 48:10

Wow, so February 10th to the 27th you.

Speaker 2: 48:15

Yeah, I was just in that secret place and that was like the Asbury revival was going on and I was just going from an encounter to encounter, glory to glory, and I mean again, I have it all documented. There is so many encounters that I had and and I just need to put it in a book because it's already journaled- it's already all yeah because he's like I need you, I want you to write a book, and I'm like, lord, I don't know where to start.

Speaker 2: 48:39

He goes. I already had you write it at your journals. I was like, oh okay, that's easy back in the process, right, yeah?

Speaker 1: 48:46

you just need, like a book midwife yes, I do, I do, I actually I have contact good good praise god I do need help with that, um so you know I'm hearing go ahead, sweetie.

Speaker 2: 49:04

oh so, to answer your question about that, that orphan spirit with that whole Esther kind of anointing because that, you know, she was the one was like, ok, I'm willing to die if I, if I die, I die. But you know, and Mordecai telling her, you know, you know you need to say something because otherwise you know, and that's how I feel, like otherwise you know, and and that's how I feel like that same thing fell upon me. And then actually going to that million women, you know, uh, prayer meeting in dc with who angle it was, the whole thing was about esters, you know, and esters arise and the mordecai's and like it was just so yeah um, it's just so.

Speaker 2: 49:45

it's just so amazing watching what he's doing with a woman that really made a mess out of her life. I took every wrong turn there was, but yet he just always leads me back to himself and to the plans and purposes that he had. Yeah, so, that's what keeps me grounded.

Speaker 1: 50:08

I think somebody else needs to hear that again. What did you say?

Speaker 2: 50:12

I don't know what did I say?

Speaker 1: 50:14

Like, basically to the point of like, look what he's done with a woman who was a mess.

Speaker 2: 50:20

Yeah, look what he's done. And when he redeems, he restores. I mean I took every wrong turn possible and everything the enemy could have done to throw at me he did, and yet the Lord just never let go of me. He kind of showed me like I like to fish and he said it's kind of like when you go fishing, you know, and you get the hook, and he's like he gets the hook in you when he, you know, when you accept the Lord in your life, and it's like, okay, she's mine, I've redeemed you, I've called you by name, you are mine, you know that.

Speaker 2: 50:50

Isaiah 43 one. And when he redeems he restores, and it's like if you've ever gone fishing, if a fish is fighting you, you don't just yank it and because you'll you'll rip the hook out of its mouth or you'll break the line. You kind of got to let it take the line until it gets tired and then you reel it in, and that's kind of the way it's been with me. I mean, I've had the prodigal encounter more than once and not like I'm a flip flop or anything like that. I was just for me. It literally I had to to know that I was healed and relieved of this pain, otherwise I couldn't fake it. To know that I was healed and relieved of this pain, otherwise I couldn't fake it. I the only thing I knew was to you know, fight or flight response was to was to cover it up through alcohol or drugs, you know.

Speaker 1: 51:34

And.

Speaker 2: 51:35

I was just trying not to to feel so much pain. And he just reeled me back in. He would let me take the line and I could almost hear it and he's like okay, you tired and just reel me back in. He never let me go.

Speaker 1: 51:55

He's so close to the brokenhearted too.

Speaker 2: 51:58

When she's sick, you know so close.

Speaker 1: 52:01

And.

Speaker 2: 52:01

Isaiah 61. And then you know, when Jesus repeats it in Luke four, it's, it's the core, foundation scripture of the orphan heart ministry. And what I'm out here doing is ministering to the orphan spirit, to native people, because, you know, not only do they feel are they physically orphaned, but they feel orphaned from their own country and the land that their the father gave their fathers. You know, and um and um, you know, the lord spoke to me about it like the united states had to be established in order for revelation to be fulfilled and, um, in order for scripture to be fulfilled, the us had to be established. And, yes, it hurts the father's heart. But he also gave me um, matthew 5, 10 through 12, to communicate to native people. It's like, blessed are you when you're persecuted and people revile you and say all kinds of evil against you for my name's sake, because a lot of things were done in his name that were not of God, because the original settlers they came with the right intentions, people, the greed came in, but again it all needed to happen. And so because God's going to turn it all for good, but at the end of Matthew 5.10, and that I notice amongst most of the tribes, that if you're right with God, it's a good day to die.

Speaker 2: 53:40

And you know, they know that there's more to this. This is not it. This is just temporary, you know, but our job is to let them know that there's. You know, there's more. You know, in a life eternal with the God who created you, I mean as I go, you know, when I was in Arizona, the Navajo people are so on fire for the Lord.

Speaker 2: 53:59

They have the Bible translated in Navajo. They have elders were telling me stories like old people telling me that their grandparents were telling them stories of Jesus, that they had encounters of Jesus here prior to any white contact. And so you know, god's written it on every man's heart and he's just wooing his bride back to himself, you know, and he's all called us to. You know what he's called us to and if everybody just gets in position and stays at their post, things can work out. You know, everybody's just kind of stay in their lane and whatever that is, whatever. The Lord doesn't call us to everything, but he does call us to some things and we're just to just be obedient. I just been trusting him.

Speaker 2: 54:40

What's that yes, alignment.

Speaker 1: 54:44

Yes, we have assignments and too often, like, we get sidetracked because we're maybe following somebody else's assignment or, yes, you're, there might be money involved. You know what I mean? It's just correct. It's the ways of the world and it I don't know for you but, like, as you come out of you know, just the quote-unquote safe safety of a job and out of the safety of quote unquote of you know what you were doing before, how, how has it been for you, like, overall I know you said that you know you were evicted and then you were given a place to stay how has it been emotionally for you? Because, um, you know I'm with you, like I've had. It's been a roller coaster since 2021, especially since leaving the job, and it's been such a trustful journey. Like, how have you been doing and how have you been able to even share your journey of you know walking it out right, like following him?

Speaker 2: 55:45

I mean it's, it's really a daily thing and I I literally say the lord's prayer every morning, not out of like a religious obligation, but it really reminds me, like paul says, to die daily. It's like thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. It reminds me like, okay, lord, your will be done today. If I'm in your will, which I know that I am you're going to provide and you're going to protect me because I'm alone. I've been single and celibate for six years, since I got sober, and he's my provider and my protector. And since I left my job and then, losing everything, I drove uber for a you know a season after he released me out of that secret place. After that nine months, he released me to to drive uber, because before that, I mean, I could not get the app to work. I couldn't not get it. It was just like I was like, okay, fine, fine, because you know, I couldn't physically work because it couldn't be on my feet, and what I, you know, what I know, is restaurant business. I was even willing to wait tables, but I really can't, couldn't be on my feet for more than an hour and it had gotten so bad. But the Lord has healed it since then. I'm healed of that plantar fasciitis also, but I just trust him. It's just my church from Florida. They've been sending me $1,000 a month and that's going to stop in February, which you know. My car payment is $750 and my insurance is $200. And so that's that and plus I have other bills and driving across the United States and the Lord has just provided. Like people just sell me money, I'll wake up and there'll be just money in my account. It's just he, just he's just provided for me the whole time. And yes, I do worry about it and I think about it. I'm like Lord, like cause, like right now, my car payments. You know it's it's late and I'm like, okay, lord, well, you've gotten me out of this. I suspect you're not going to just drop me on my head right now and so I trust you, lord, I trust you because that's been the real, another, you know, kind of a I don't want to say stronghold, but a big resistance is is me, you know, learning to trust and saying, okay, lord, I trust you, I trust you. I'd be crying and driving down the road. I trust you, I trust you.

Speaker 2: 57:59

Just a lot of tears and a lot of prayers and a lot of reminding him and a lot of remembering what he's brought me through. You know and that's, and, um, you know to not forget, like Deuteronomy eight teaches us not to forget the lessons in the wilderness when we get into the promises. And I know the promises are coming because I know he's faithful and and I know that he brought me this far not to just drop me on my head and I just couldn't, trusting him, like I was brought here, you know, told that I was going to have this place to live and and it's just not ideal and I don't feel the release to move in there. It just doesn't. There's just I don't know why. But I know when the Lord releases me into something and I know when he's telling me to just wait, hold on a second.

Speaker 2: 58:42

And so I just been kind of crashing at one of the pastor's houses in his couch and he's okay with it for right now, but I'm looking at a place today, but I'm like Lord, I just want to unload my car. My car has been loaded up with everything I own because I gave away all my furniture. I gave away everything after and I have a little bit of stuff in storage in Florida, but everything I pretty much owns in my car, and it's been like that since March. I'm like I would really like to unload my car and get some stability, like you know. But, um, again, it's not really about comfort Cause, if you see, what I see here on this reservation is just like I'm just grateful and I'm I'm really working on not murmuring and complaining, not saying, oh, it would have been better if I had, you know, go back to, back to Egypt.

Speaker 2: 59:26

You know, I don't want to be that. I'm really just trying to be mindful of what comes out of my mouth and not complain and just say thank you, lord, I trust you. I know this is your will, I know you're going to get me to where I need to be and, do you know? Because he doesn't want us to live like you know, paupers either, but knowing where I am, you know paupers either, but knowing where I am, you know it's kind of like I have to just trust him that he's going to work it all out. So really, that's what it is. I really don't have an answer, it's just a daily reprieve.

Speaker 1: 59:57

Yes.

Speaker 1: 59:58

I mean you gave so many keys from your answer to people to lean into, as they're walking through this as well and we're all walking through. There's many of us, like I said, there's many of us that are. There's such parallel journeys I'm sure you've noticed as well with many in the body around the world and I'm blown away by it. And I get to hear people's stories, whether you know, one-on-one or like like them sharing with me personally, and I'm so like I hold people's stories so sacred unless they come on here and obviously share publicly. But I get to keep saying like, keep going, you're not alone. Like that was my message today. It's like keep going, you are not alone. Because I think sometimes I don't know if you've you've felt this, but just those moments of feeling alone, like I'm the only one going through this, and that lie from the enemy, that you're the only one going through this. Have you encountered that at all?

Speaker 2: 1:00:55

Girl. I've been an only child. I have felt like that my whole life. You know my mom, like I said, she had 20 miscarriages. I'm the only one she had, and you know they told her she should have never had me the only one she had. And and you know they told her she should have never had me. Her womb was so gnarled from her appendix apparently bursted, and they took one of her ovaries and the tubes were like in knots.

Speaker 2: 1:01:17

The doctor was just like there's no way you should have this child and and so, and that is something the enemy used to use as a weapon against me. You know, and I cause I would say well, why'd you bring me here? Why'd you have me come here, lord, if this is going to be my life of abuse and neglect and you know it was just like it was something the enemy used against me into where I've grown into a place and saying, okay, lord, you, you know you gave me a set of fingerprints. Only I'll have everybody that is alive is a miracle. It's not just me, because my circumstance I mean my dad, I guess kicked my mom in the stomach when she was pregnant with me and so, like the enemy has been after me and I guess it's because I'm I'm the, I am the bloodline breaker, I am the generational curse breaker. And now, now that I see, like my cousins that are, that are in witchcraft, posting their witchcraft stuff, and like now I'm standing in the gap fighting for them in the spirit, saying, no, the enemy cannot have them, you know, and um, you know, and I'm the outcast because I'm the only one in my family who serves the Lord and and nobody in my family has any contact with me. I've always been alone. Physically, I've been doing this. I drove 17,000 miles by myself, just me and Jesus, like I've always just been alone.

Speaker 2: 1:02:39

And so, yeah, the enemy would like to whisper to me be like. You know, see, god doesn't like you and you know he wants you to be alone, and you know he wants you to be alone. And you know I've been single for six years. I'm like there's no man. And I've been believing for reconciliation with my marriage for 15 years, that we've been divorced and and and, but I have to just fight that and saying, and I keep hearing.

Speaker 2: 1:03:00

Then I hear the Lord's still small voice, which is even louder than that voice, saying I just want you to myself for a little longer. You know, and um saying, you know him giving me, you know promises of of. You know the goodness and mercy are going to follow me all the days of my life. You know we will see the goodness of God in the land of the living. So I just know that this is a temporary season and you know a husband is coming. Whether it's my husband, my marriage is reconciled or you know, whatever he has in mind and even if it isn't, I'm okay with it. Either way, I just said like I said. I say the Lord's prayer. Lord, whatever your will is for me, that's what I want, because it's going to be the best possible outcome, because your plans for me are good.

Speaker 1: 1:03:49

Full on surrender right.

Speaker 2: 1:03:51

Yes, well, and that's the main word that he gave me and I think it was for 23 or 24 was stay yielded, stay surrendered and stay at rest. And I just I strive for that every day is learning how to abide and just stay yielded, stay surrendered and stay at rest and trust them yes and it's definitely a daily thing, and it's especially when it gets hard, when I'm out of money and my car payment's behind. I'm like lord.

Speaker 1: 1:04:21

If you want me to like drive the country to the name, I'm gonna need a car, so you're gonna have to work this out and I've been saying that lately too, because I'm we're walking through some circumstances too and it's like you know, when you're following him you're not going to go back to what you're doing before and and sometimes it just like I said in my post say it's not going to always look like it makes sense on paper, and it's okay, cause he's got it right?

Speaker 1: 1:04:48

Um well, I would love to have you back on when your book comes out. We're just probably going into that. Um well, I I will wrap up for today, but, um, whenever uh, you know I do these podcasts I would love for you to just, um, you know, catch a vision of somebody who's listening in today, and if you could just speak over them. What? What do you feel is on their need? You know, what does their heart need today? Would you speak over them and then would you pray us out today?

Speaker 2: 1:05:18

I would love to um. You know what started um, I just want to started, um, I just want to preface the prayer by saying, like um, one, two things that are sticking out to me holy spirit wants me to highlight is one of the things. I was sitting in my prayer chair, contemplating, abiding, you know, and abiding, and I learned to abide in the secret place. And he said all I'm calling you to do is be the branch, the branch that abides in the vine and the fruit comes off of the branch. We get to bear the fruit but we have to abide because we can't bear fruit of ourselves. And learning how to abide in the vine so we can bear the fruit is a big, big part of the journey and all of it is a big part of the journey and all of it. But what led to, I believe, that healing and sealing portion that I went through in the secret place where the Lord healed me, was when Mary went to the tomb. She saw the two angels in there and I asked the Lord. I said why were there two angels in there? And he said they were tending to his womb. They were tending to Jesus's wombs because, like the napkin was folded, I'm sure it didn't look like a bloody crime scene in there, I'm sure it was. You know very much in order, and a finished work is a finished work. You know, just like you know, even Lazarus I mean, mean, they said that, they, you know there was starting to be a smell he said take the grave clothes off. He, he didn't look freakish, he was, he was whole. Yeah, and so, like I, I came out of that secret place, out of that healing hole, and I'm forever changed because everything the enemy has tried to use in the past to destroy me he's thrown at me since then, but the sealing of those wounds by the Holy Spirit, the enemy can't penetrate it. It's a finished work and the enemy will try to remind us of the wounds and of the past, but we just have to remember that we've been healed and sealed in Jesus' name.

Speaker 2: 1:07:25

And so right now, father, I just want to come boldly and humbly to your throne of grace and I want to thank you for this time. I want to thank you for this platform, I want to thank you for Kristen and for what you put on her heart to be a voice, to be a voice for you and to give others a place to be a voice for you and just share our testimonies and how we've overcome by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony, because you are good and you are faithful, and when you say you desire for a spotless bride, it's not a bunch of perfect people, but it's people that are whole and that are healed. And so I just pray right now, father, that whoever's listening, and if you're struggling with pain or trauma or not knowing who and whose you are, that you would just come to the place of surrender and just say okay, lord, I'm going to lay here today in my bed, or I'm going to stand here in my room, or I'm going to sit in my car. Wherever I'm at, I'm asking you to come heal me, jesus at. I'm asking you to come heal me, jesus. We ask you to put your hand on their places that hurt, and that you would heal every single open wound that they would have. And, holy Spirit, you will come behind it and seal it so that it can never be attacked again by the enemy. When the enemy does try to come, it's healed and it's sealed and it can't be reopened again because you do a finished work when you said it is finished. It is finished and you took it all upon yourself.

Speaker 2: 1:08:57

And so I just ask that you, holy Spirit, would give them an encounter upon encounter, take them from glory to glory, so that when they come out of that encounter with you, they are changed forever, like paul on the road to damascus we were one way. I love when. I love when that part in the chosen when she says I was one way till I met him. You know, now I'm another way and and it's, it's your way, it's yahweh, it's the way that you want us, which is healed and sealed, and we just thank you for everyone that is listening. We just ask that they would come to a place of surrender, stay yielded to you, holy Spirit, and that they would just be at rest, knowing you got this, and that we can trust you with our brokenness. We can trust you with our wounds. We can trust you with our hurt and our. We can trust you with our wounds. We can trust you with our hurt and our trauma, and our past and our pain. And we just ask you, jesus, to we plead and apply your shed blood on the conscious and subconscious minds of any bit of trauma that they're experiencing that you would just cleanse it and heal it. So it's forever done, it's a finished work, and then when we come out of that place, we know that we met the Lord. And then we get to tell somebody look what my Lord did for me and he will do it for you.

Speaker 2: 1:10:17

We just thank you for this time.

Speaker 2: 1:10:19

We thank you for what you're doing in this season.

Speaker 2: 1:10:21

We thank you for the revival and reformation that is coming, that is happening with your people.

Speaker 2: 1:10:26

We thank you for the shift that is happening in the political realm, but mostly in the spiritual realm, in the spirit realm, where things are moving and that you're getting everything in alignment and I really do believe the best is yet to come and that we're getting ready to see your goodness being poured out on us. We're ready for a refreshing, ready for a big drink of your goodness being poured out on us. We're ready for a refreshing, ready for a big drink of your goodness in the land of the living. And I just thank you, father, for this time, for this outlet, and that everything just went the way you wanted it. We just pray that it reaches whoever it needs to reach and that they would receive it with open hands, with clean hands and a pure heart is what we seek, father. We're seeking your face on our face. We're seeking your ways, jesus, because it's the ways of the Father and Holy Spirit. You show us how we give you all the praise, honor and glory in Jesus' name, amen.

Speaker 1: 1:11:29

Athena, thank you. Oh my gosh, what a blessing you are and your story, your testimony. Your life is a miracle and I cannot wait to hear more, because there is more, and definitely want to have you back, like I said, when your book comes out. So, um, what would be the best way for people to get a hold of you if they, um, maybe want to sew into your ministry? What have you?

Speaker 2: 1:11:55

um well, there's um a few ways. They can find me on Facebook, I don't know if you'll put a link maybe I'll put everything in the show notes.

Speaker 2: 1:12:07

And then my phone number would be my Zelle and that's 720-595-0361. Paypal would be my name. I do have a cash app and I also. If people would want a tax deductible donation, they can either sow into OrphanHeartInternationalorg and I can send you the link to me, my direct link through Orphan Heart and then also my church in Naples, florida. They will receive on behalf of me and get it to me for a tax deductible, but most people just sow directly to me. So however people feel, led.

Speaker 1: 1:12:58

And how about your email if you want to just speak it out?

Speaker 2: 1:13:01

Yeah, it's Athena Freedom A-T-H-E-N-A Freedom Fitting huh At gmailcom and I've had that email for decades.

Speaker 1: 1:13:14

You're living it now so beautiful. Oh well, thank you so much for sharing today, and I do want to just thank you for being a brave voice that is setting others free. I'm going to close with the Hope Unlocked anchoring verse, which is May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that, by the power of the Holy Spirit, you may abound in hope, and that is Romans 15, 13. So, as I mentioned, I'll put all the information to get a hold of Athena in the show notes. Please get a hold of her and look forward to hearing more about everything that's coming your way. So thank you again, athena. I will be back with another episode next week.

Speaker 2: 1:13:53

thank, you blessings.

Speaker 1: 1:13:58

Thank you.