The Holy Spirit Encounter That Shattered Fear and Unlocked a Radical New Calling with Devonna Reyes

In this powerful episode, Kristin Kurtz and guest Danae share a raw testimony of healing from church hurt, a Holy Spirit encounter in a laundry room, and the faith steps that unlocked clarity, courage, and calling. From worship revival to prophetic obedience, miracles on the road, divine provision, and prayer assignments in Washington, DC and New York City, this conversation highlights intimacy with God, deliverance, and learning to follow His voice in everyday moments. Perfect for anyone seeking spiritual renewal, breakthrough, and a deeper walk with Jesus.

Devonna's contact info:

Website - https://awakenliberty.com

Email - breathe.pray.worship.love@gmail.com

Devonna's books:

Kingdom Marriage: God's Plan through the Blood of Jesus

The Legend of the Last Luminary: The Spark: The First of the Trilogy

The Legend of The Last Luminary: Onwards and Upwards

The Legend of the Last Luminary: Endings and Beginnings

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Chapters

• 0:00 Welcome And Guest Introduction
• 1:23 Danae’s Story: Family, Faith, And Warfare
• 8:37 Church Wounds And Walking Away
• 14:54 Loss, Conviction, And Returning To God
• 20:14 Motherhood, Music, And Holy Spirit Nudges
• 24:54 Surrendered Living: Coffee, Idols, And Trust
• 30:49 Health, Fasting, And Hearing God
• 35:29 Baptism Of The Holy Spirit Encounter
• 42:04 First Assignment: Citywide Worship Gathering
• 48:19 Calling Without Credentials
• 52:59 Direct Access To God And Identity
• 58:54 Hidden Ministry And Living The Gospel
• 1:03:04 Obedience Over Systems And Scripture
• 1:08:09 Provision And The Life Of Faith
• 1:11:49 Moravian Falls: Angelic Phone Call And Songs
• 1:21:09 From One To Thousands: Redefining Ministry
• 1:25:24 Family Missions: DC And New York
• 1:31:19 Worship Assignments, Trains, And Provision
• 1:36:44 Wall Street Worship And Repentance

Transcript

SPEAKER_01: 0:16

Welcome to the Hope Unlock Podcast. I'm your host, Kristen Kurtz, and I'm also the founder of New Wings Coaching. I help and empower wild-hearted and adventurous women of faith feeling caged and stuck, unlock their true purpose and potential, break free from limitations, and thrive with confidence, courage, and hope. If you're curious to learn more about coaching with me, head to newwinkscoaching.net and be sure to explore the show notes for ways to connect with me further. Get ready to dive in as we uncover empowering keys and insights in this episode. So tune in and let's unlock hope together. Welcome to the Hope Unlocked podcast. I'm Kristen Kurtz, your host. I pray this episode is like a holy IV of hope for your soul. Please help me welcome Danae Reyes to the show. I am so excited to have her here today. Um, we are a new connection and kind of a fun connection on the back end, but I won't get into all the details there. We had a chance to chat a little bit beforehand, and I cannot wait for her to share more about the ways that the Lord is just moving in her life, and I know that she's gonna bless you guys. So, with all of that to say, would you share a little bit about yourself before we get started?

SPEAKER_02: 1:22

Absolutely. My name is Devana Dine Reyes. Um, I go by Dine, my middle name, it's just easier, and it's what I've been called most of my life. So, anyway, um, there's that. I'm a mother of four. I homeschool my kiddos out of obedience to the Lord, not always by choice, but I've loved it. We have to go there a little bit. Yeah, absolutely. It's that's been oh, I mean, that's something. Yeah. And uh I've been married for 18 years by the grace of God, and uh that's a whole that's another whole journey, sanctification so much. Just Lord's done such a mighty work in my marriage. By all means, it doesn't mean secular terms, or I guess in the secular world, we would not, we should not still be married. It's literally by the grace of God. Um, and through, you know, these various things, like the Lord has allowed me to birth several books um and just different things. Besides that, I mean, my heart is my heart is to seek first his kingdom and his righteousness and let him do the rest because anytime I've tried to put forth the effort um in my own strength, it fails miserably. Yes. Um, and so I'm still, you know, still learning, still, you know, walking with him and just really learning who he is more every day. And the more that I learn about him, the more accurately I can share him with others. Um, and I have found that putting in the time to know who he is and developing relationship and intimacy with him truly is really the only way to actually share. Um, and that's the only way I've seen. Well, he's faithful. He's so faithful. He's used every stage, every season, my the little that I know or whatever. Um, but just lately, he's been blowing my mind with how he's been grabbing the hearts of the people that we've encountered um in a deeper way than I've ever seen before. And maybe it part of it could be I just didn't have eyes to see before, or maybe he's allowed me to see a little bit more of what he's doing. Um, it's just it's remarkable. It's a remarkable journey. I wouldn't change anything, no matter how hard it's been or the challenges that have come my way. Um and yeah, I'm just very grateful, very, very grateful for him.

SPEAKER_01: 3:59

Yeah, so you're you're on a wild journey too. I I think you we were talking a little bit beforehand. And um what did your journey start like, even just growing up? Did you grow up in the church? Um, what did that look like with your own faith journey in stages of your life?

SPEAKER_02: 4:17

Growing up, my dad was a pastor. He was um initially involved with assemblies of God, the like a Spanish church. Um, well, it was both, it was bilingual. And so I have a total of um, there's eight children and from the same parents. We're a big old family, and we were the worshippers, the worship team. And um, it just really a remarkable story. My oldest brother never took piano lessons or anything like that. The Holy Spirit literally taught him how to play the piano, and to this day, he is one of the most gifted pianists I've ever known. Um in how old was he? Oh my goodness, he had been playing since maybe eight years old, maybe, maybe younger. Um, there's a big span between he and I. So he was doing it, I believe, before, if not when I was born. Um goodness. And so uh in in I mean, in the same manner, my next brother learned how to play the drums. Um, very gifted drummer. Then the next brother, I would consider him more like the the tech guy that he was just very, very smart, very wise with technology, and he didn't need to be taught, he could figure it out. It was pretty amazing. He's still the same, it's really, really amazing. Isn't that fascinating? And then then the rest of us, we we sing, we would play tambourines, you know, we were little, so of all ages, we were just the worship team. Oh my god. And um, so we grew up with that, but we also grew up with uh the most intense warfare that I I would never wish on anybody. Um just there was just a lot of stuff. I would say how the best way to describe it would probably be a mix between, I mean, actual warfare, spiritual warfare from us being the light in dark places, but then we also had our own internal things going on. There was a lot of stuff in um in my family, like generational curses. That's what I would call them. I'd call them generational curses or familiar spirits or bondage from religious spirits. Um, oh, I mean it just a slew. There was just a slew of stuff that did not belong. And so um my dad suffered from PTSD. He was a war, he's a war veteran. And I I wish, I'm like, Lord, now that we know about deliverance, you know, I do wish that was a part of his story. And I believe in his latter years it has been. But at I mean, I don't understand. I don't understand how everything works out, but I know that there've been things that the Lord has used me in my journey to break out of from things that I saw or experienced in raising my children and how I view ministry and how I do ministry and how, you know, just in in everyday life and making sure, because I feel like I grew up with a bit of a facade between not like I know my parents did the very best that they could, and I honor them, love them so much, and I respect them with everything, but there was a way we were at church and there was a way we were at home. And the two did not make sense, they did not um they it wasn't, I can't, how do I word it? Um it just wasn't adding up, yeah. And so I think um I just figured maybe that that's how things were, and it wasn't until well, I I'll share a the a brief part of my story. It used to be a major part, by the grace of God, it's only a brief part. So the Lord moved us from northern New Mexico to central New Mexico. We moved to Santa Fe, which is where I was born, where I'm from, where our family is. But um, in that, in the midst of that, we were a part of a church that, you know, was growing so fast. It was probably the biggest church in Santa Fe at the time. Um, I went to high school in, you know, in their in their school. And um, it was in that time where we found out my oldest sister had been sexually abused by the pastor for years. And um, there was just so many, so much. When when Ovelick came out, I don't think any of us had the mental capacity or spiritual capacity to actually handle that, you know, the news. So we all went through just maybe the worst of transitions. Um, it the whole situation got very, very, very, very ugly. Um, my family was actually booted from the church and asked not to return. Um, it just got so weird. And so from that point, I was like, okay, well, I I just told the Lord, I know that you're real. And I know that what I've seen in the church was not you. And so that being said, I walked away for a good season. I mean, well, maybe a good five years, maybe five to seven years. I walked away from the church. I walked away from even trying to live like what I was told. I was like, well, if the person who is teaching me how to live according to God, you know, in the Bible, was doing what he was doing for so long, then why should I? I got a very bitter, very ugly, very broken attitude. Um, and it really did, I mean, it took root, unfortunately, but that's the truth. And so um, the Lord walked me through this process. He's so gracious because he never left me, even though I was not filled with the Spirit of God. I, you know, I was all over the place. Um, I met my husband and we did not have a godly relationship. You know, I had two very broken relationships. Um and how old were you at this time then? Uh at this time I was about, I would say 17. Okay. 17 years old. And so I was in college um and dating my husband long distance, and like I said, we were not living godly whatsoever. Um, we dated for about four and a half years, and then I ended up um pregnant and I had a miscarriage, and it shook me to my core because I I never stopped praying, but I I really wasn't, you know, wasn't intentional. And I I don't know, I was just a mess. I was living in sin. And so when I had the miscarriage, my core, I was like, this child died because of my disobedience. And you and you know, there was just this level of guilt, shame, condemnation, burden. Oh, it was too heavy for me to carry. And so um, I would say that actually played a pretty big part in me returning to the Lord. Um because I I I was just so sorry. I was like, Lord, I your way is better and I know it is, but I also knew my heart was not ready to obey or follow you. And I wanted what I wanted. And unfortunately, that was, you know, that's the fruit of it. You know, the fruit of sin is death. And so I mean, I see it a little bit differently now. I just I see his grace and his mercy all over my family, all over my husband, all over myself. You know, it's not anything that I well, I feel like he's delivered me from a lot of that, um, from carrying that. Um because I know I did for a good while. But um that's so much to carry, right? It is. It's like, oh goodness, wow.

SPEAKER_00: 12:53

We know that like guilt, shame, and condemnation are from who?

SPEAKER_02: 12:57

From the devil. Absolutely. Um and so at the same time, I'm like, well, there was there was still a level of conviction in it. Um yeah. And it did, it did drive me back to the cross. Like I found my heart wanting to be more obedient, wanting to do the right thing, you know, wanting to be, wanting to be righteous, you know, whereas I knew I had already been following my flesh, I had already been following my own whims or whatever. And um it just stirred up something within me that was like, I am I'm made for more. And while I understand these things happen all the time, I thought it didn't need to happen, you know. It really was an unnecessary pain, but but the Lord still carried me through it, you know, that's the beauty of it. He still never left me. So um it was shortly after that that um my husband proposed to me, and uh we got married within three months, which was just yeah, I'm like, oh my goodness. And we were got put on an accelerated path, I suppose. Um and then he wasn't walking, he didn't know the Lord. He he didn't. Um not at all, like no, he came from a well, he came from a Catholic background, but they weren't practicing Catholics. He lost his dad at a very early age, so he was carrying a world of hurt and pain, loneliness, and orphan spirit, just so much stuff. He was carrying so much stuff. So, in a way, we kind of made each other our saviors, um, which turned out to be false salvation.

SPEAKER_04: 14:42

Right, right.

SPEAKER_02: 14:44

Um yeah, go we went through so much. I mean, so, so, so much, which I do, I write about it, I would say more in depth than in my book, Kingdom Marriage, because there's just a lot of stuff that we went through over our first years of marriage. We, I mean, talk about toxic relationships and healthy habits and just sinful patterns. Oh my goodness. I mean, we were living just nothing, it was not good. It was very hard. Um and I think at one point I just I just broke. I was like, what has my life become? And is and I, you know, I always would point my finger at myself. Well, this is the result of disobedience, you know, you didn't pursue a man of God. Why? Because in your heart that you were bitter towards people of God because of what happened to your sister, you know, just different things, um, different, uh, very unhealthy thought patterns, and um a lot of self-condemnation, a lot of um, just a lot of stuff that the Lord by his grace, I even today, I feel like he still continues to remind me of his goodness and his grace and his mercy and just washes over, like even speaking about it now, like I feel him washing over all of the all of just all of it. It was turmoil, you know, in various ways. Just oh, this did not turn out the way we thought. And um, you know, what is happening in my life, and oh my goodness, I had hoped for so much more. Um, this isn't the way it was supposed to be, just so many things. And so, anyhow, um we well, I believe we got married at 24 and 25, and then we had our first baby at 27. And uh, and we have four now. So, I mean, it's just been a wild journey. I received the baptism of the Holy Spirit in 2013. That's after I had my second son, and that's what changed my life. Like so, I had grown up in church and all of this, I had lots of Bible verses memorized. We'd done summer camps, you know, the whole Christian spiel. And and I did love Jesus. I really did, I loved him to the degree that I was able, but I was also a walking wounded person. Um, and so I when I met, oh man, this it was such a crazy, crazy thing. So after having my firstborn, um, she just changed my life. She absolutely changed my life. I had never experienced like the intensity of love, this pure love for another individual, ever, more than my parents, way more than my husband. Um, I know how that sounds, but it was this love and a different term. Yes, like this was flesh of my flesh, you know, she came from my body. And I I believe also having lost one before, um, you know, I held to her in in many ways, maybe too tightly, which the Lord has also addressed. But um, she was just this like, oh my goodness, she gave me a purpose. She gave me um, yeah, she just kindled something within me that I did not know was possible to exist. So it was when we were driving to my parents one day, she started. I listened to Mariah Carey all the time. She used to be my most favorite singer in the world, had all of her songs, and I was just jamming out to one of her new songs. And the the lyrics were I can't wait to hate you. I hear my almost one-year-old precious baby girl sing those words, and I mean conviction like I've never experienced before. She is so pure, and those words should not have exited, you know, they've never should have entered her mind or her ears, and they should have never exited her mouth. And I was like, What are you teaching your daughter? So I turned off my music and I never turned it on. Like from that moment, I was like, I am not listening to secular music, I'm not gonna do it because that was it like it grieved my spirit. I had never felt a grief like that before. It's like, goodness, what is this? What am I feeling? And so anyway, um, it really pushed me again further into Jesus, further into living a really separate life, like a life that I would I personally I would never tell people like, do this, do this, do this. I just say, whatever the Holy Spirit tells you to do, he knows what you need, he knows what you don't need, do whatever he tells you to do.

SPEAKER_00: 19:46

Um that bears repeating.

SPEAKER_02: 19:49

Yeah, absolutely. So, whatever Holy Spirit tells you to do, he knows what you need, he knows what you don't need. Do whatever he says. And it's not a cookie cutter thing, you know. Your life is different from my life. We have very different um, I would whatever triggers, we have different responses, we have different calls, different purposes, though they may be similar in some ways. We all have to listen to the Holy Spirit because he is the one who's leading us in all truth. So he's, I mean, we've lived this pretty crazy life where there are things that he'll remove for seasons, such as like people would think, oh, well, that's whatever, that's crazy. There's been times of no secular music, which and even now in this season we don't, but there's been things that he's given back. Umce our mind was transformed, if that makes sense, he was like, You weren't ready for handle this now, now you're able to receive this in the way that I want, like, I want you to understand me more. So wild, very, very wild. Even something as simple as coffee, like he removed things from for seasons. And because anything, even if it's good, including family, including a spouse, can it can enter, you know, idolatry if we're not if we're not careful.

SPEAKER_01: 21:10

And even kind of like, you know, I hear people say, like, oh, I haven't had my coffee yet. Like, wait, you know, what what would you say to somebody like that? You know, maybe they're just reliant. I I hear the words almost like this reliance on something. It's literally um, how was it for you? Let's let's just go to coffee for a moment. Okay, how was it for you? Because I feel like somebody's like, I can't give up my coffee. How was it for you? Like when he showed you to like, did you did you say, Oh no, I can't do that? Sorry. Exactly. Yeah, I was not doing it. Nope.

SPEAKER_02: 21:42

Absolutely for you. I so I thought, I struggled. Um, when I first heard him, I was like, that couldn't be the Holy Spirit. Like, go get away from me, Satan. You know, like I don't know about that because because then I would go to the Bible script. Paul's talks about, you know, um, like all things are lawful, but not all things are beneficial, you know, and and then I started to find myself like justifying my actions. And then I was like, why are you fighting for this? Actually, like, why are you fighting for this? If so, even if it wasn't the Lord, but if it was the Lord, why wouldn't I say yes? Like, what is that struggle within me that's fighting so hard for a substance? What the Lord showed me was that beyond addiction, because it actually is a very addictive, you know, it is very addictive, it's delicious. Come on, like it is. I loved the flavor, I loved the smell, it was just part of the routine. It was it was the morning thing, like that was my ritual. And but that's what it is. It's actually a ritual that you're doing, you're performing for yourself, really, um, to get you ready for the day, instead of well, well, I replaced it. I replaced it with prayer. That's what I did. Um, was it easy? No, I was a monster when I got off of caffeine, like the way absolutely. And that's what showed me, Danae. You actually had a problem that you didn't even know about. Like thing had a hold on you that you were not aware of. And I was leaning so much on it that I it just was preventing me from leaning on the Lord in a deeper way. Um and I would say I actually I see the same thing with a lot of the people like that are holding so tightly to it. Like, if there's anything in your life that you can't open your hand to the Lord and say, if if you do, if you did ask me for this, I do give it to you freely. And if there's anything, then it's an idol and it has a place in your heart and a hold on your heart that is preventing intimacy from digging, you know, from going deeper, from just being developed deeper. Um, that being said, I can drink coffee with the Lord. It's not a daily thing. I don't, I still don't drink it every day. Um, I actually found that my body feels a million times better when I'm not drinking coffee. Who would have thought? Well, Holy Spirit, you know, of course. And that's what he was showing me. He was saying, Danae, it's not about what you do and what you don't do. It's about do you trust me that I know what is better for you?

SPEAKER_04: 24:27

And I mean, we've been through question mark.

SPEAKER_02: 24:31

Right, right. And I I thought, whoa, well, I didn't try. I thought I did try. I always think I trust him, but it's like when the rubber meets the road. Yes, like, well, you're showing me where I don't trust you. You're showing me where I actually trust in my own strength or my own physical, you know, my own physical world instead of you and your word. And he's still growing in this thing. Like I'm still growing in trusting that, you know, that he knows what's best. Like he's taken me on a dietary journey. Um, it's been wild and it's not been, it's been so hard. Like that one's been so hard. What what does that look like? Is that a recent thing that you're walking on? So it is a recent thing that I'm walking out for um for this year, it like he's done different things at different times, right? Like now I don't struggle with coffee, so that's not been a highlight. Um, there's freedom, and that's the beauty of it. Because there was discipline and obedience, even though there was struggle in it. Uh, when I finally thought, well, I'm just gonna at least I'm gonna obey. Like I made the choice with coffee. I'm gonna obey. And then I felt better. And I was like, oh my goodness, like I felt anxiety loosen and go. And once anxiety goes away, then depression goes away, then the stress starts to decrease because you just your body regulates and you don't have this surge of you know, of I must perform at a hundred miles per hour every single minute of every single day. And you just learn, I learned how to rest. That was what I did not know how to do. Yes. So he brought me this beautiful season of rest. Now for the the dietary things, it's looked different at different times, and we've done different fastings and all Holy Spirit led. Um, there have been times where he he very specifically told me during COVID cut out sugar. And I didn't know why, but I was said, okay, well, I heard you, so okay, we're just we're gonna reduce and cut out our sugar, we're gonna produce honey. And then within a couple of months, all of these scientific papers start coming out about how sugar decreases the immune system, sugar creates all kinds of sickness, sugar is addictive, all of these things. And I was like, Lord, so inflammatory, right? Yes, yes, and so I he I'm like, you surely do know best for your people. Yeah, it was such a setup, wasn't it? Absolutely, it was mind-blowing, mind blowing. Yeah, um, and so but I have to say, like, even during the COVID time, I like I really had to deepen my trust with the Lord and what Holy Spirit was saying because there was half of my husband, well, my my husband's family was demanding the vaccine. We didn't get to see the newborn baby because none of us were vaccinated, different things like that. There was so much chatter, so much vision, and so much fear. And but my husband and I were like, no, we heard from the Lord not like he actually gave my daughter a dream when she was five years old, and she was like, by the time COVID hit, she was nine or so. And so I wrote down her dream when she was five years old about people standing in line for food, and they could not get food unless they had received this poisonous shot. And she told me this dream, and I mean, she's like five years old, and I could not believe it. But I wrote it down, I was like, this was from the Lord, so then COVID hit. I remembered, like brought to remembrance, oh my gosh, this is this is it. Like, don't take anything that they're offering you. Um because there whatever is in that is not good for the body. Exactly. Um yeah, just things like this. But anyway, so in 2013, going back to that, um, I I had this encounter with the Holy Spirit. This beautiful woman, she actually um she uh opened the door for me and my sister to be a part of the worship team again because as I mentioned earlier, we're worshippers. Um this stuff happened with my sister, we walked away from the church.

SPEAKER_01: 28:46

So um this can I stop you for a second, even like to go into that just for a second. Did it did it like stop you even singing? Like, did your voice get absolutely suppressed?

SPEAKER_02: 28:58

Oh, I never, I never, I didn't, I just stopped worshiping. I just stopped worshiping. I was like, I have no reason to worship. I don't think I sang a Christian song or a worship song um for a very long time. It was long after, long after I was married. Um and I mean, like I said, I would like secular music, I would listen to it and all that, but I didn't like I don't know.

SPEAKER_01: 29:27

Um but you're like singing, like, do you feel like that definitely was stopped up too?

SPEAKER_02: 29:33

Absolutely. I I was totally shut down. Well, and I I at that point in time too, um, that was in my first relationship, and I actually made a decision because I thought I cannot live in sin and then go before a church and a platform and worship God. Like I can't live in duplicity in high school. And I thought, like, I I have I had a fear of the Lord by the grace of God. And unfortunately, my fear of the Lord should have, it should have done more in my private life than what it did in my public life. But I basically stepped down from the worship team because I was I was guilty and I did not want to present myself as, you know, as uh a fake, you know, like if I'm living in sin and I know I'm living in sin with the first boyfriend, then I I can't I can't go up there and worship the Lord like at the same time. I can't lead other people into worship because you know so true though, right? Right. Well, and I'm thinking, like, well, thank you, Lord. And I think think in that he he in the strangest of ways has honored as he's honored that um and he's provided opportunities now for me to lead worship in purity and I'm so grateful because I'm like I did not I never chose the stage for the Lord never um even though I have the opportunity I or for myself I never chose the stage for my own self for my name um you know I I respected the Lord at least that much even though like I said in private like my relationship with the first boyfriend was not godly it just it was sexual sin oh what it was and so anyhow um this beautiful woman fast forward uh before we got married but um no it was I'm sorry it was after we got married and after I had my first baby my Sophia um I started to have a desire to sing to worship again like I I really wanted to get right with God and it's so funny because I thought it was going to be my own efforts that would get me right with God. So it's like I really want to sing again I really want to you know whatever I just I want to I want to live for Jesus and even though my home was a mess like my relationship with my husband was so rocky so toxic so a mess I wanted to serve Jesus and um and that caused more issues because I started to crave holiness and my husband was just content you know living in the world and in sin. And so um it was very rough very very rough but anyhow this beautiful woman opens the door for my sister and I to lead worship. She had already um she was the worship leader my brother my younger brother had been serving under her and um she didn't ask me like any questions it blew my mind she did an interview we just sat down at at a table which is so perfect we sat down at a table and she asked me you know oh well you want to serve when when do you want to start and I just looked at her like you're not gonna ask me anything else like you're not gonna ask me about my sinful past or my my you know all of my junk you don't want to know any of that and like the love that poured out from this woman wrecked me and changed me in a way that I had not I really hadn't encountered somebody like that. Like I felt like I had encountered so much judgment and criticism and fear and so much negative that just having this woman oh let me sing to Jesus. Well I was she like an older woman too yes she was an older woman I'm so grateful for her. Her name is Oli Oli Hodges and so that started something so big and it was it was an answer to prayer because my sister also had never sung since what had happened to her. Wow so it was this beautiful open door for us to begin to serve together again. And um it I it was so the Lord. So anyhow through this woman through this relationship we began serving and my hunger for the Lord just kept it just kept growing I just wanted more because I could feel it was like I feel like there is something more to this Christian life than just going to a Sunday service or a Wednesday service or being on the worship team like there is something more and my spirit is craving it and I don't know how else to put it so Oli started opening up her home after Sunday services. She would feed us spaghetti and garlic bread. Just she's amazing. She opened her home and then um her and her husband Steve started teaching us about the Holy Spirit and I was all ears but I was also like ooh is this gonna get weird you know like oh man I had never heard these kinds of teachings before but I also knew from my childhood I had dealt with the darkest spiritual warfare. I could see demons I could hear I could feel um but I never felt the angelic if that makes sense and so I was caught in between this world where I was like I know the darkness exists beyond a shadow of a doubt. And so therefore I know God exists but I have not experienced him in the same way or I didn't realize I did. I was blinded literally to how much the Lord was with me as a child because I was so caught up in fear from what I had already encountered. And so anyway this woman starts speaking about the Holy Spirit and the spiritual world and I was like oh my gosh why is it that I know like why did everything she says resounds and I understand what she's saying. And so then they talked about the baptism of the Holy Spirit and I was like okay Acts 1.8 I know scripture and I know what Acts 1.8 says you shall receive power when the Holy Spirit comes upon you. And I was like I don't have power right now. I throw up my prayers and I think they hit the ceiling you know I don't think that they are heard by God. I certainly don't see his you know I didn't see his hand in my life but also I was very blind I would say um and so her and her husband prayed for me and um nothing happened and I was like that sucks so I went home and I was not satisfied was like okay Lord I believe that what you wrote in Acts 1.8 is the truth like I believe that and so I am not gonna stop praying until you answer me like until I receive this like whatever this power the Holy Spirit whatever this baptism of the Holy Spirit is that is what I need and that is what I want and I'm not gonna stop asking until you give it to me. And so um I prayed fervently every single day and then I want to say it was maybe one or two weeks later I am back at Oli's house and she says Danae I had a dream about you and I was like oh okay and um and I was sad I was sad that I that nothing happened you know from the prayer before I'm like yeah I don't know so she tells me the dream and she says I saw you standing in a house and um and I saw two windows and the windows were open but there were screens on the windows and there was a dove on the outside of the house trying to fly in and as soon as she told me that I was like I know what the dream means and so I went home and I just started to I just started to pray like Lord oh what are those screens what are those screens so one it was I don't know if it was the next day or within the next week for sure within the next week I am folding laundry um my oldest Sophia and my uh my son Royce are toddling around they're very very little and I'm folding towels in my laundry room and I just got so fed up I was like okay Lord I know you know what those screens are and I don't know but I need you to tell me and of course as soon as I opened that invitation to him of course he's like right there and he said fear and pride and I was like whoa I heard I heard that so I said then I rebuke and I renounce fear and pride and I had never done any deliverance in my life this was all I believe Holy Spirit like I rebuke and I renounce fear and pride I want the Holy Spirit like a dove to come into my house and when I said those words oh like a portal like fire and water just opened up over my head and it got so hot in the room and it was like just rushing like this crazy intense um I just I don't even know that's the best way I could word it is like a whirlwind of fire but water and I was both being burned and refreshed at the same time it was so insane and it was so real that I just I just cried like oh maybe the deepest weep I've ever released um and then I heard like a I heard a different language in my mind and I was like is that tongues and I I said it and I was not expecting a response Jesus responded and he's called me by name he said Danae voice it by faith and so I start babbling and bumbling you know and I received the gift of tongues right there in my laundry room and I just start crying I just want to highlight you're in your laundry room so um my laundry room that's yeah like the Lord every the Lord wants him people to know it's not about the church building it's about the heart of the person and it's about the cry like and how are we open to him really you know and so all of this is happening I drop my towel and I'm crying I'm like you I heard your voice and I'm just like I'm at this point I'm in a whole other place now I'm like freaking out I heard your voice God is real Jesus is real and I just start saying like Jesus is real he's so real he's so he he knew my name all of these sudden truth realizations just breaking down so many lies that I had believed that I was alone that I he didn't care that you know oh how could he let me go through so many things and didn't he see my marriage didn't he see my life my career all the mys you know all the the world self just breaking through all of that stuff with the reality that he has been with me the whole time and somehow it I I heard it said the other day he's that familiar stranger like you know his voice but you you you know there's something about that well this was where the veil was removed and suddenly I got to meet the one who's been with me the whole time and um it wrecked me it changed the whole trajectory of my life suddenly nothing mattered my career didn't matter my the condition of my marriage didn't matter nothing mattered I was like you know what all that matters is Jesus and so um he took me into the word like he started to teach me he took me to the book of Daniel I started studying and pouring over the book of Daniel and the Holy Spirit was giving understanding I was like oh my gosh it feels like I've never read the Bible before like I feel like I this is the first time I'm actually something's happening in my spirit where I'm not just reading black and white words off of a page you know um I it just everything changed and then from that point he started leading me to do different things um like these assignments and the first assignment was to put together uh a an event a worship and prayer event and I had three months which was funny I was like oh I did the wedding three months I heard him say yes there will be which is my favorite number too one of them um he said there will be an event in three months and I was like Lord but he gave me a vision like I had my first vision of um of like the September leaves in Santa Bay it's so gorgeous all the leaves are starting to turn yellow on the aspen trees and um and and I saw this and I was like okay and he gave me the names of the churches to go to he gave me a letter to give to the pastors um with a vision and things like that and I was like Lord they are gonna think I'm crazy so immediately I started struggling with fear of man and at the same time I was like but I heard you so I have to obey so I went to these churches and I talked with as many pastors as would meet with me. And many of them did think I was like off my rocker or I don't even know. You know they think a million things and I was like no I'm just here because the Lord the Lord said so and um I was able to gather well Holy Spirit pulled together the people who are willing to meet and we did a day of worship and it was the most beautiful thing one of the most beautiful things I've ever been a part of just to see it happen. And I was like Lord you said and you provided and you made the way and here we are standing in the answer of your word like this was all you and it's all for you and um just that zeal like oh I hope I never I hope I never lose it because there have been seasons it's been it's been a while of walking with Lord and there are seasons you know when I don't know if it's I maybe a weariness of the soul or do you do we just get tired because we're like wow we've done so much and then I don't know or discouragement something you know the devil loves to derail and distract this nonsense and it's usually in that where it's like Lord help me remember help me not lose the zeal because it was always ever about your voice and so um and how long ago was this event that you put on oh man when was it it was probably 20 either 2013 or 2014 because it was very soon after me receiving the baptism of the Holy Spirit I believe it was 2013 September uh either September or October definitely the fall and so um he didn't wait that was what blew me away he was like okay we're you know we are in the word you're reading and you're obeying me and uh it was amazing it was crazy and then came an assignment and it blew my mind I was like you're you know like I don't need to sit in this discipleship course for five years before you're gonna send that again right and I don't need to take what you know for real I don't need to take these other courses or I don't need to do any of that before you're gonna use me.

SPEAKER_01: 45:22

Girl we need to stop on that for a little bit yeah it's I do I I mean in the work that I do with ladies um you know I I the Lord will call us to do things and it's like well the the lie would be well I don't have a degree I don't have this I don't have that I'm not good enough I'm da da da um can you go a little deeper on that like for the listeners as far as um I don't know I just always look at the disciples I just you know Esther and I mean just keep reading pretty much everybody in the Bible but all that to say and then just share with us your your favorite Bible person if you wouldn't mind in relation to that. Sure.

SPEAKER_02: 46:04

I um so I I appreciate I do have a genuine appreciation for discipleship. I appreciate that people are wanting to help people mature in Christ and I don't think there's anything necessarily wrong with that until or unless it becomes a form of control or disqualification to do whatever the Lord has called a person to do. I think that just so the Lord has healed as I've shared my my deep wounds from the church. That being said there is still a major reformation that is upon the church even today. We're a lot of things the Lord is cleansing the temple um he's given a long time to repent and a lot of people thought that they could get away with a lot of things and he's like not in my house not in my house if it is my house then it's gonna be holy because a holy God lives in a holy house so um that being said there's I I think that there is something that a lot of people who don't know their identity in Christ fall into and they start looking at man and what they can give. They start looking at the bread that people make instead of looking to Jesus as their daily bread and it's like okay well it comes from a similar source Lord willing these people who are providing their courses and providing their things um and their discipleship classes they do mean well and I believe that good can come of it but like I said if ever it turns into um control or uh or a an obstacle to doing what the Holy Spirit says then it's a problem. And I think people need to know that like the sheep have direct access to the living God to the Father to Jesus Christ. You do not go through a man. The only man is Jesus Christ. So and that's that's been a message that the Lord has placed within me that oftentimes ruffles a lot of feathers within the church because the church structure it has been it served a season but the Lord truly is doing a new thing. And he's doing the same new thing though that Jesus literally came and told this the Jewish people about their temple. Like he was so offensive because his words about the temple seemed so disrespectful. And but it was like no I'm here to connect you to the father to your to the living God the one whom you say you worship you know and so in in a similar way the Lord has placed that burning message within me that is like hey you guys you've been given direct access the veil was torn and if the Lord can meet me in my laundry room he can meet you anywhere you just have to ask you know you and but that's it is like I sincerely genuinely asked like that widow that did not give up you know I was knocking on heaven's door and I was like Lord you have to answer me you have to and there was a desperation that my whole life had culminated unto it's like I can't do this without you Jesus and you need to be more real to me than a Sunday sermon. Like I actually need the real Jesus to demonstrate your power in my life and I will settle for nothing less than the power of the living God because there are many who have a form of godliness but they deny the power thereof. And I'm like there's no transformation without the power of God. So um that's been my life's that's been a pursuit like I and I don't want to ever get comfortable I don't ever and it's so hard now that my kids so my oldest is now almost 15 years old my youngest is nine um we've been doing this homeschool life this ministry thing for the Lord um and like I said earlier ministry to me is just life like I don't have anything I don't have an organization I have a website which had which has my books and music and stuff but it's my the the site is to tell people will you go obey the voice of the Lord because he is speaking like are we available to say yes when he says go to that homeless person right there because I have a message for them and I love them and I want to dine with them. It's literally living it out in a way that most other people it's not on a platform it's not on a stage it's not with a microphone it's not on Facebook it's not you know it's not that it's very hidden because the father who sees in secret will reward and it's about that it's like my relationship with the father is so much more important to me than anything else that I I just want to obey. And it's that passionate love for him and for that relationship that desires connection above anything else like there's no sin there's no temptation that is worth disconnecting from the father like that's how beautiful the relationship is and it just drives you you're you it just drives you into these beautiful miraculous moments where you are a vessel that the Lord pours his spirit out and his love his mercy his loving kindness into the lost and it's so easy. It's like wow I didn't have to rebuke anything I didn't have to fight for this person's soul. I didn't have to condemn them I didn't have to I didn't even this is crazy sometimes I didn't even preach the gospel I lived the gospel and I I preached with my actions and my words like and the way that the Lord has gotten the hearts of people has blown my mind. But it's that it's like while they're encountering the living God through a conversation you know and um and it's for everything you say we like just comp like the world tries to complicate it.

SPEAKER_01: 52:23

I mean the church complicates and I'm not putting anybody down by any means but I think it's just it's the natural bend.

SPEAKER_02: 52:30

I would say I would agree I do feel like um I mean it's so interesting because I've seen a lot of people I've seen a lot of people like wild ones is the best way to work right you have there's something that some people carry that is so wild within them they just don't fit in the curve and that I think that's the thing is to understand it is it's nice and it's good to be a part of a community um good to have encouragement and it's it is not good to isolate that's for sure but when ah there's nothing more important than obeying the voice of the Lord. When you oh you hear him you have to obey now you should always take it to scripture I do believe in heavily in knowing the word of God because the more you know the word of God you're gonna know the heart of God Holy Spirit will reveal his character through the word of God whether Old Testament or new testament he is the same yesterday today and forever this is the truth but like you're not gonna find Danae go to Walmart written in scripture you know what I'm saying exactly so you need to know you develop the voice of the Lord and you do it or not develop the voice of the Lord but you develop the knowing of the voice of the Lord your familiarity with his voice through obedience now I would say don't ever discount yourself like it's like Gideon and Moses they both had a million reasons why they should not do anything for the Lord but the Lord said no like you're the one I chose and I'm with you. I am with you so for women and men but went from women who there's such a burden on my heart for the women who have been told you can't or this is not your place or you're out of line or you're saying too much you talk too much I would say submit yourself to the Lord fully and and allow the Lord to just examine your heart and to wash away things that whether it be true of what people said or whether it not be true just put yourself on the table and say Lord here I am I need you to show me what what are you doing in my life what do you want me to do and I want to listen to your voice. Yeah so and then just run with it. Like we have lived so it's been hard right because not a single church that we have served um has financially supported us in missions. We've received gifts by the grace of God from individual people that the Lord has allowed us to minister to over the years and through friendships. And so I've because I've prayed I tried I reached out to I mean we serve churches faithfully children's ministry worship ministry women's ministry for years and I thought surely by now there is some sort of a relationship built where there would be help you know that they would they would understand our hearts and the Lord sends us out no it didn't work like that. And I was so discouraged I was like then what the heck you know um but the Lord he has provided in miraculous ways for our family and um and he tell me about one of the most wild miracle stories. I think somebody needs to hear it today okay there's oh my goodness there is so many Lord which one do you want me to share I'll share um maybe two so the very first um journey by faith like full on and I was so scared and that's why I want to share it because I was so scared um the Lord had given me a dream and it was a remarkable dream that I encountered Bob Jones in Prayer Mountain. I didn't know who Bob Jones was I saw his face I later learned who he was a year after my dream and I freaked out and the Lord was calling me to Moravian Falls in um North Carolina and I was like that is the craziest thing you have ever asked me to do. Like I've already you know did the event and all that stuff it pulled together and um you know and I was practicing his voice at home and coffee and things like that even makeup for a season um different things like that. But then when he asked me to go to North Carolina I was like okay this goes against so many things. First of all you're calling me out alone um I had babies so I'm like okay I have to get my husband on board I don't have to get but my husband needs to be on board you know what I'm saying wasn't gonna do it if he was not on board with it. And so I was and I was testing it out too because as the voice of the Lord has he's challenged me a lot and with his ask well will you go here go here go here and I'm like oh my gosh Lord you're stretching me and so I had booked a hotel and um and I had booked or I had I was looking around I knew nothing about this place. I'm like Lord you're sending me into a forest in a cabin there's nothing it's so it's pretty isolated. Um and anything could happen and you know how many scary movies I've seen where bad things happen to people who go to a cabin by themselves right of forest yes like you just don't do that as a young woman um and a mom and a wife you don't go out to the wilderness by yourself you just don't do it. So I oh my goodness I had my flight booked and I had reached out to people in this cabin um that I felt I don't know I just felt led that's the best way I could say I can't say Holy Spirit said Danae book this room or book this he did not do that he gives a lot of freedom which I appreciate but he's also in all the details and he shows me that like hey you don't have to stress I'm in all the details I got this anyway um so I did that and then I had spoken to um a man who was in charge of a shuttle from the airport to my cabin. It was going to be about an hour and a half drive or so and I the only flight I could afford I got in late which meant I would arrive at the cabin before like around 10 o'clock. So I'm really thinking Lord this is the stupidest thing I will have ever done in my life to go to fly, you know, fly to a whole new city I've never been there before and get on a shuttle with a man only one and I'm the only person he's picking up to take to this secluded cabin in the middle of nowhere and all of this is really bad. Like all the everything in I just freaking out my mind like if I had alarms everything was just sounding off like you're really dumb do not do this and yet there was something in my spirit that knew but the Lord said and so actually the night before I canceled everything. I canceled my flight I I was like I this is the craziest thing I can't do it Lord I can't do it I canceled everything I got a phone call from a man his name was Mark and when he spoke my spirit trembled it's never happened to me before he I I literally got on my knees in the floor as he's talking to me he said Danae why are you canceling everything why did you cancel the shuttle he said you don't need to be afraid what if what if the Lord just wanted to be with you in that cabin like what if that was the purpose yeah and I was freaking out I'm like you don't know me you know you don't know me and oh my goodness he said oh everyone on the mountain knows each other it's safe we're all believers we love the Lord and he said you're not the only one the Lord has sent out here like this before he said I just want to reassure you he said even if you did cancel the Lord's not mad at you um he knows It's hard. He knows it's hard to do these things, the dear leaps of faith. So he just walks me through, like, oh my goodness, just brought so much peace. And like I said, I could not stop trembling. I was trembling the whole time as he's speaking. And he's like, Can I just pray for you? And I was like, please, please. And I start crying. And I said, I'm so I'm scared. That was just, I had so much fear. And um, he prays and he was like, Don't worry, everything's gonna be okay. He's like, I hope you change your mind, but even if you don't, just remember, God's not mad at you. Like, oh my gosh. He hangs up, we hang up, and I I did not sleep very good that night because I was like, I think I'm supposed to go. I think I'm supposed to go. And my husband had already arranged to get the time off of work, which is a mirror, it was a miracle for him at that point in time. So the net that next morning, I wake up early, my bags are already packed and all of that, and I I felt the Holy Spirit telling me, Danae, look again. Like if it was the shuttle, look again. I'll provide a rental for you. And I had looked every they had nothing, every rental company, major company, and I looked in different cities. Nobody had anything because there were major events going on in Charlotte and in the surrounding areas. So there had been nothing available because I told the Lord, Lord, if I can drive myself, I'll go. I just don't want to be in a shuttle alone with a man and him take me to this cabin, you know. Like, I don't feel like that's very good. So um, anyway, I look and there was one single car that appeared available. Wow, it was a gray minivan. And I was like, that's hilarious. So, and it gets even funnier because if I share my last, my last dream or not dream, last thing that happened, it's gonna, it's kind of funny because I never thought of it before. So I was like, Okay, well, I'm gonna drive a minivan all by myself then. And and he said, Well, then book it. So I booked it, I rebooked my flight by the grace of God. My flight was less expensive than the one I ri originally booked. Doesn't make any sense. I love it. I go and my husband was like, I knew you were gonna go. And I was like, How did you know I was gonna go? I didn't even know I was gonna go. And of course, that was all judgmental still, really. I had a lot of healing that I needed to do towards my husband, but the Lord had, I mean, he really, really met my husband in a crazy way a few years prior. Um, transformed my marriage, has continued to transform my marriage anyway. So my husband's like, Oh yeah, I knew you were gonna go. And I was like, Okay, well, I didn't, so let's get in the car because we gotta go, we gotta catch a flight. So I go, and the Lord, um, that was when the Lord told me, you need to treat the thousands of people like one, and you need to treat the one person like the thousands of people. Um, I need to redefine what ministry actually is. And so I met one young man on the airplane that night. He was carrying his guitar on his backpack, and I was carrying my guitar. He ended up being a worship leader from Gateway Church here in Texas, and he was not in a good place. He was trying to escape from his life as a worship leader. And um, so he started talking and very in very similar ways, like the Lord, you know, some people just become this open book, and it's like, oh my goodness. He starts sharing his his life and his struggles. And I was like, Oh my gosh, I think I'm here for you, is what I told him. I can I pray for you. I pray, we pray, and he starts crying, and he's just like, Wow, I really, really needed that. Thank you so much. And I was like, Yeah, well, the Lord sees you, He wants you to know it's not what you do in the building, you know, He He loves you. And I just I was blown away, blown away by the love of God. Um, I get in my rental car, my minivan, and I drive, you know, through the fog through Charlotte and into Wilkesboro and um into Prayer Mountain. And um, I'm in this huge cabin, huge cabin, um, all by myself. So so I thought. And another man named Mark shows up, and he's he's the owner of the the places, and so he opened the door and I was like, Mark, did you call me? You had to have called, like it had to have been you. I thought it was gonna be you shuttling me, right? And he's like, No, I'm the only Mark on the mountain. And I was like, No, yeah, I'm the only Mark who lives on the mountain. I was like, uh, that's not possible because this Mark called me and and he was like, Oh, it's probably an angel, it happens all the time. And I was like, What? Like, what world are you people living in? This is crazy. And so anyway, he tells me, Well, there's a young woman who's actually gonna be staying with you as well, so you won't be alone in the cabin. And I was like, Oh, thank God, you know, like and anyway, um, she was she was Muslim and she found Jesus, and we just had the most fantastic time because we got to take communion together, and the Lord had given me a word about Ishmael and Isaac being brought together by the blood of Jesus, and so we literally got to live that out. It was crazy. And um, anyway, great, great time. I mean, the Lord gave me an album, he gave me the Secret Place album that he told me, I just want your voice, I don't want it produced. Like I had already produced an album uh two years prior, I think, or maybe a year prior. And this one he said, I just want it raw. And so I was like, Okay, Lord, like yikes, but okay. And so he gave me all the songs while I was there on Prayer Mountain, which is miraculous because anyone who writes songs understands one song to that comes out is sitting on countless and like countless hours of reworking and re-whatever, all the things that people do to the things to make it presentable, you know. Um the Lord just gave me scripture and he gave me all of these the melodies and the lyrics and stuff, and it was just this huge devotional album, like my own prayer set, you know, with the scripture, with the prayer, and with the songs to go with it. And so um I did that out of obedience, created that, and so that was like the first story. There was so much that happened that trip, I have to say, the Lord blew my mind, and so there's this cute little quote that's like the a journey of a thousand steps begins with one. You have to take the first step, and the greater the act of faith, the greater the Lord is going to meet you in your faith. Like he loves faith. Oh, he loves it so much. Eve, I would say I don't know if it more than obedience. I think you only obey in faith, but it's like the more we cast off fear and just take those steps. Oh my goodness, what he will do with it. And it's for us. That's what blew me, that's what blew me away. I was like, oh, well, I was like so mission-minded. Oh, I came for that one man, and God's like, yeah, but I came for you, yes, and I wanted to show I just wanted to be with you, and I wanted you to understand that I want to be with you. Um catalyst, though, for like where you're at now, yeah, for real, and yet, okay, so it's easy for me to trust the Lord with myself. It's a whole it has been a whole other thing to trust him with a family of six traveling financially. So we've you know tell us more about like where you're at now and like what you're doing. Yeah, so fast forward, that was, I mean, that was only that was like 2020. We're not very, very long ago. It was during, was it during COVID or before? I don't remember. Anyway, now okay, we just got back from Washington, DC and from New York. Um, the Lord had given me dreams regarding New York, very specific ones, and a man told me and my family, like, you need to go worship. He told me three times, and he showed me this weird, weird um instrument hanging on his garage wall. And he said, This distorted sound has been playing in the atmosphere. You need to go worship, which is what the Lord sends me to go do. I've been many places, Los Angeles, whatever, wherever the Lord has sent me to go worship and just break things off in the atmosphere and bring his spirit, invite his spirit, invite freedom, and um and holy angels, you know. And so we, I was like, babe, I think we're going to New York. We did not like our financial situation. I'm praying. I'm like, Lord, you know our situation, you realize how much of what we've done has had to go on a card. Now, I don't know if it had to, but that's what we've done. The Lord is teaching me otherwise right now. But and I'm grateful for that. It's like, no, I need greater faith to just trust him for the finances. And um anyway, so we are, you know, well, we we got our flight. It was a gift from the Lord. My husband had just received a bonus this summer, and we were gonna drive. And people just kept telling me, Oh, I thought you were flying. Oh, I thought you were flying. And I was like, We're driving, it's cheaper. And the Lord, as he has telling me so many times, Danae, look again. He's done. There's so many things with that phrase. Look again. Yeah, look again. Yes, it's say it again. Look again. But it's right when I've already looked at everything and I've already exhausted all the options. It's what P told Peter, hey Peter, throw your nets over on this side. And Peter's like, Lord, I've been fishing all night and there's been nothing. And he's like, try again, you know, one more time. And so that's how we've gotten homes and vehicles by his look again. I'm like, oh my gosh, Lord. Okay. So when he told me that, I look up flights. We were able, by the grace of God, to get our entire family of six to Washington, DC and back on less less than$400. That is a miracle, yes. In October of this year, this is current.

SPEAKER_01: 1:11:02

Was that during the the recent um event that they had out there too? When everybody was out there, that's what we went for.

SPEAKER_02: 1:11:09

Communion, yes, communion America. So um, at the beginning of this year, before we knew about communion America, I was in my my closet, I was praying, and I heard Lou Ingle. As I'm praying to the Lord, I hear Lou Ingle audibly. This was crazy, this does not happen normally. Um, I hear him tell me, come sit at the table. And I was like, Oh my gosh, that was Lou Ingle. What the heck is he doing in my closet? Why did I hear that? That was insane. And then we go to church and they roll out all of these videos about communion America. It's like, oh my gosh, we gotta go sit at the table. Like, we gotta go, we gotta go there. And um, so usually I I've traveled with my kids in the past. Last year, we went to the the Million Esters, you know, event with my children. My husband, he didn't want to go, and he well, he didn't, he couldn't get off of work. So this one, he um I didn't, I didn't, I don't even know if I asked him. I think I just assumed, oh, he's gonna have to work. He's like, I'm going with you this time. And I thought, praise God, like, thank you, Lord. That's a huge answer to prayer. Um, and so we flew, which has been a this is the first time we've ever been able to fly as a family because we just could not afford it before, not for vacation, not for anything. And so we got to fly out to Washington, DC as a family of six, and oh, the Lord is so good. Um, He just gave us so much favor. Like we were on a crazy budget, we ate a lot of sandwiches from our hotel room. Um, you know, we kept things so simple, but the Lord, you know, he like people would just be like, Hey, I feel led to sew into you. I'm gonna send you, you know, dollars. I'm sending you this. And my husband and I just look at each other like, praise God, because our credit cards cannot literally handle anymore. We're so that's so not okay. So, um, I mean, we're like we're really pushing, even now that we're home, like Lord, you have to help us because yeah, but anyway, I just want to say, like, even as you're speaking this right now, like you are not alone. Yeah.

SPEAKER_01: 1:13:21

There are so many people, like, I talk to a lot of people, and um, you know, there's just a lot of us, and I'm including myself in this too, where we've taken huge steps of obedience, and like the finances are like it's it's like we're at the we're at the we're at the precipite pre can't say precipice of like breakthrough. Yeah. Divulging my story, because this is not about me right now, you're not alone.

SPEAKER_02: 1:13:57

Yeah, amen. Oh, wait, I told my mom, it's like mom, we're maxed out for Jesus.

unknown: 1:14:01

I don't know.

SPEAKER_02: 1:14:02

Yeah, amen. Hey, I don't know what else to say. Like, I know it defies secular wisdom. I I'm well aware because I have my finance degree and I have a master's in business. I know I did accounting. There we go. So I'm like, by all means, we are living as foolishly as possible for the sake of the gospel, but we have obeyed. We're called to two, though, we're called to prove it's right.

SPEAKER_01: 1:14:27

Oh, true. So that's what I hear at least.

SPEAKER_02: 1:14:30

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01: 1:14:31

Anyways, keep going. I just wanted to stop.

SPEAKER_02: 1:14:33

I had to share that. I so appreciate that. And amen. And I received that, Lord. Like, come on, breakthrough. We're ready for it. So, um, we after uh DC, the Lord made a way for us to get discounted train tickets. Oh, it was the greatest trip ever. I was like, this is so great. We're taking a train from DC to New York, and um, it was intense though. Like the Lord carried us. We did 72 hours of 24-7 worship. Like we participated, right? We didn't do the full 72 hours or we die. But um, we were in uh the New Mexico tent. We got to help out with Alabama, we were in New York, we were doing um the Hawaii tent, just praying and worshiping um wherever we could. My oldest daughter got to worship in the Gen Z tent and um in the Israel tent. It was just amazing. It was so amazing. The presence of the Lord was tangible, like, oh my goodness, so powerful throughout the entire national mall. And so that was an honor. DC was a whole other level of glory that the Lord has been just moving. But it's that, it's the wild ones, the obedient ones who truly did let go of the system of man, control of man and the control of religion, and it's um monopoly over what ministry is, what it looks like. And it was the people who they will obey no matter what the cost. And so, and I know there's many. I'm like, Lord, this is just a fragment, this is just a tiny fragment of what you are doing across the world and of your obedient ones. And so um we we took a train to New York, and uh one of the dreams that I had had about New York as well was the whole entire city on fire. And I thought um, as I was walking down the streets, um, I saw military vehicles pulling up to apartment complexes fully ablaze, and they were pulling out only the people, men, women, children, wrapped in wool. And I was like, Lord, these are your people. They're wrapped with the wool of the lamb and they're being protected. That being said, they were also being displaced. So they were being put in these military vehicles because their apartment complexes were on fire, and they were being put into these homeless shelters in the corners of um, I guess, uh abandoned New York restaurants and things like that. Those were like gutted and they just they were full of cots now, full of beds. And um anyway, the dream gets pretty intense where uh I became like a homeless woman and um and I felt like I had lived in the streets of New York for years, years, years, years. I was so dirty, I was so stinky, and like I was living it in my dream. It was so bizarre. Like my feet hurt everything. It was so weird. Uh, and it was cold and um and wet and rainy and stuff. Anyway, so I meet this young man in a coffee shop, still in the dream, and um there was something so different about the young man. And he was typing away on his laptop and he had stickers on his laptop and he had a like a guitar on his back. He closes his laptop and he starts to leave, and I was like, Wait, what is different about you? And I look at him like more intently, and I was like, You have joy. You have joy. And I was like, Where where do you have where like where are you getting this from? And something inside me like awakened, it lit up, and it was like it was crazy. It was so amazing. And he's like, Oh, well, I'm on my way to the prayer room. And I, I don't know, as soon as he said prayer room was like, I need to go, can I go with you to the prayer room? And he's like, Yeah, you can follow me. I'm on my way there now. So that's how my dream ended. I it ended as that homeless woman being like awakened to joy from this man's face. He didn't even tell me about Jesus, like he was just so markedly different from everything else. And um anyway, so there was that dream as well. Well, we were literally led to a prayer room, actually in real life in New York, and that young man, I believe was the man who greeted us, like in the church. He was a young black man, so sweet, so overflowing with joy, blew my mind. And I was like, Lord, this is crazy. So just so many different things, like the the Holy Spirit is in every single detail. Now, when we first arrived to New York, we literally had like maybe two to three hundred dollars. Um, we had to cancel one of our hotel rooms the first night because we could only afford one of them. What I didn't know was how itty bitty this room was gonna be. There it'd be physically impossible to fit six people in one room. Um and so I didn't know this, but I was like, Lord, I'm tired. You know that like I wasn't stressed, but I was just praying, like, Lord, you have to provide because we're we are we can't even reach out on our credit cards anymore. Like it's not there. Yeah. So um, as I'm sitting down preparing to check in, we had to wait a little while. I get a text from a random person that I haven't talked to in a little while. And he was like, Danae, are you guys there in DC? I said, No, the Lord sent us to New York. And he's like, Well, what do you need? And I said, Well, we need prayer. And he's like, No, but financially, what do you need? And I was like, Uh, I have no idea. He said, New York is so expensive. This is crazy. And I was like, Lord, if I was on my own, I'd be like, I could just fast, no big deal. Like, you know, and I'll find something, you know, little something to eat. But I have four children and they don't do that, you know. Like, and so um, I look at my husband, I was like, babe, what do we need? I don't know. And he and so I I felt like 600. I that's that should be enough to cover, you know, the food for the day. That's like a hundred dollars whatever per person um for four days in New York. It's like that should should be enough. Anyway, so um he he had told another friend, and that other friend who is also a friend of mine sent it to me like right then and there, and I just cried. So I was like, Lord, thank you, just thank you, because I no longer I reached the end of my rope, and you knew that we had nothing else, like you had this had to be you, and so I was already overwhelmed, and then I go to check in, and the lady tells me, Oh, well, we sold out of the room that you asked for. You asked for two beds, and we don't have any of those rooms, so I have to give you an extra room for free. And I was like, What? In New York City, you're giving me free room, so more tears. I was like, Thank you, just thank you so much. Oh my gosh. Because my husband said he was like, Oh, well, I'll sleep on the floor, no big deal. But like my heart sunk. It's like, babe, I don't think you should have to sleep on the floor. Like, but I mean, I'm glad that you're willing, and obviously, we have no choice, we got to do what we're gonna do. But you know, it just I was like, Oh, that's not how I had hoped it would be. And then the Lord provides two room, and I just I couldn't even believe it. It's like this is and then he gave us so much favor with the people. Uh when we were buying food, they would give us extra portions. Does not happen, it just doesn't happen. Um, even in Dallas, like we live in a very, you know, very, very wealthy place and you know, more affordable than New York. People don't typically just give you free food, you know. He's like multiplying loads of it was that. I was like, Lord, we bought a small and you gave us a large, like just things like that. Um and and there was one woman, he told me to go worship on Wall Street, so that was like the first big, big place that I knew we had to go. And so we were on Wall Street the following morning, and I worshiped, it was rainy, but I I didn't care. Like we worshiped for I don't know, an hour, an hour and a half, maybe maybe two hours. I'm not sure how long I was out there. And one woman, like people would come and go, there were droves, they would come and they go. Sometimes it'd be pretty quiet. And then there was uh a couple of people who lingered, they would just linger there, which I was grateful for. But then there was one woman who just came up to me in tears and she just starts confessing her sins. I was like, oh my goodness, wow. So I had been recording, I turned off my Facebook. So I was like, this is holy, and I want her, I want her to encounter Jesus, and I don't want any hindrances, you know, and whatever. So I turned off my camera and she just starts sharing her life and and repents of her sins and all that and gets right with the Lord and shares her story. Like, oh, I met my husband here on Wall Street, like I don't think she said maybe four or five years earlier. And I laughed, and I was like, Well, how beautiful is it that you get to meet Jesus as your husband on Wall Street today? And it was just so crazy because she was like, Well, I wasn't even supposed to be here, I was supposed to be on this other side of New York, but something led me right here to you, and I was like, That's the Holy Spirit, and he wants you to know he's leading you, like he's not distant from you, he's not far from you, anyway. It was so beautiful, so um, yeah, stuff like that, and then uh just coming everything. The Lord, so as I had mentioned in my dream that I was in a gray vehicle, um, we had to rent a car because the Lord was sending us through all the all the boroughs, and there was no way we could walk. My my kids' feet, especially from DC and walking all New York, we were toast, like our feet done. And so I rented a vehicle and it was the same vehicle that I had dreamt about. Like I did not use this car, this car was chosen for me, and like, well, there's your car. Just couldn't even believe it. It was the same, same car. I was like, Lord, you're literally in every detail. Yes. So, where I was in a mini-band, you know, the first time I took an adventure by myself with the Lord. Now I had my whole family in a graveyard, and we got to just go through all the burrows. The Lord took us to the very first Planned Parenthood, which uh the Lord wrecked my heart many years ago for you know, against abortion. He showed I had just asked him, Lord, what's your heart towards it? Because I didn't have an opinion, I didn't know. I was like, I hear the rhetoric, I don't know what to believe. I don't, I really don't, I don't know where where your heart is on it. Now I do because when I asked him, I cried for two hours, could not stop crying. I was like, oh my god, if that's what you feel for for one baby, like oh, then this is not okay. And so it, you know, that that turned into a whole thing too. But so for us to go to the very first Planned Parenthood in the heart of Brooklyn and pray and take communion as a family over that space, and just the Lord gave me a beautiful um word because it's called the Brownsville um like Brownsville district or something like that. And I was like, well, when I hear Brownsville, I hear revival. Revival, yeah. Yeah. So I'm like, we're gonna declare and decree that a Brownsville revival and a major shift of life come from the Brooklyn borough and just hit all of America in the same way Planned Parenthood has affected all of America. We decree that that culture of death be flipped and become a culture of life. Yes. So it was it was crazy like to be able to do these things with the Lord, like not anything I could possibly come up with or plan or strategize. Yes, him exactly the best, like he is the king of logistics, he knows where he wants his people, he knows the words that need to be released, he knows. I've been a part of a lot of different groups that they strategize and they plan, well, we're gonna follow this and we're gonna do this, but a lot of it has been in their own strength, and they have gotten such intense warfare and backlash never seen. And I'm like, oh my gosh, Lord, like please don't lead us into something like that. If we have to, we have to, right? Like our lives are yours, you can do whatever you want, but I want to be in your will. I want to make sure I'm listening to you because there was a time where I felt like it became more flesh than it became spirit, and and that's why I said, like when we first started talking, I want to make sure that I live my life in a manner that I don't ever assume I know what the Lord is saying, that I don't ever want to assume I know what to do because I've done it in the past. The Lord does things different all the time. He's I don't think I've seen him do something the same thing, actually, uh like multiple times. I don't I don't think he has a copy machine.

SPEAKER_01: 1:27:42

No, like it's like you know what I'm saying? It's like yeah, like even when people talk about blueprints, like here's my blueprint, you get to use my blueprints like, well, that doesn't really work, right?

SPEAKER_02: 1:27:56

Like you have to lean into the voice separate one, right? Well, and I mean he's a creator, it's not like he stopped creating, you know, he's still he because here's the thing if ever we we know, then we no longer trust, right? And so that's what he's been telling me. And I've I think I've gotten, I've read a few words like Lana Vassar, everyone I follow, but um, she had she did, she released a word just the other day about leaning into the voice of the Lord, like leaning into the Lord more to hear him more clearly. And I really, I really felt that because I was like, Lord, I um I want to make sure I am getting my daily bread from you. I want to make sure that I'm only going where you tell me to go, that I'm only being a part of what you tell me to be a part of, because there's so many, there's movements which I'm grateful for. Might be for stuff for those people, right? It does not mean it's for every single person. God has a very specific call and purpose. Like not everybody was meant to go to DC, not everybody is meant to go to Chicago. The ones that he called for those specific assignments have a very specific thing that he's asking to be released and received in that moment. And our God is so big and so great that he can master plan something that just flips the enemy on his head because he can't possibly keep up. Exactly. It's so funny.

SPEAKER_01: 1:29:22

That's like such a great way to put it. I love it. Like, he can't keep up because he has no idea what our playbook is.

SPEAKER_02: 1:29:28

Well, and because we don't know sometimes we don't know. I'm like, we have no, I have no idea where I'm going next month or next year, or I have no idea what his plan is. But when he gives the order, he wants those who have been surrendered. Like, hey Lord, yes, sir, I'm ready for my marching orders. You've given it. Here we go. You're gonna provide and I'm gonna trust you. And it's the craziest life of faith that I I never I never thought it existed. That's the crazy thing. Starting back from my childhood, I did not know that it was possible to live like this. What a privilege, right?

SPEAKER_01: 1:30:06

Yeah, but it's crazy. I know, I know, girl. I'm telling you. I I I know I know more than you know, than you know. Right. I'm like, anyways, oh my goodness. Well, this has been so fun, and like I feel like I almost need to have you on again. Um, if you'd like to come back, but would you share with us, you know, what you know, in your ministry too, like that question that your friend asked, like if somebody's listening today and they want to. Pour into your family and so into what you're doing. How can they get a hold of you?

SPEAKER_02: 1:30:42

Oh wow. Yeah. So um I'm on Facebook. I um, but my my website is probably the best place to find me. It's awakenliberty.com. So www.awakenliberty.com. And on that website, it has my emails. Um, emails probably the best way to get a hold of me. Um and it also has links that I I think it does. I think it has like Venmo or PayPal or something to that effect. Like if but I the people, you know, like I don't ever just send out my links and say, hey, just give me money. It's a love relationship. And I think that's the way that is the kingdom of heaven is through relationships. So yes. Okay. Yeah.

SPEAKER_01: 1:31:27

And I will be sure to link your website in the show notes as well. And then are your book you have all your books and music and everything there as well. Yes. So they can find. Do you want to just share like the titles of your books as well? Are they like available on Amazon and all the places?

SPEAKER_02: 1:31:42

They are. They're available on Amazon. Um, the first is a trilogy, it's a sci-fi trilogy that is about the bride, the bride of Christ. And it's just so fun. The Lord gave this through a series of dreams that I stewarded. Um, and it turned out to be a trilogy. I had no idea what I was doing. And if I did, I probably wouldn't have finished it. So God is so good in that way. Um, anyway, the name is The Legend of the Last Luminary. So the first one is the spark, the second one is onwards and upwards, the third one is um endings and beginnings. And so those are available on Amazon. Those are that's a fun read. And I I had to put just a few like bits of my story in there and words that the Lord has given me. It was so it's Holy Spirit inspired. So I pray that draw people into a deeper level of intimacy with him. And then um, my most recent book is called Kingdom Marriage. This goes through a lot of deliverance, um, a lot of deliverance through marriages, especially for people who've grown up like in the church. There's a lot of things that happen inside the church that are not okay. And so the Lord, I believe, is using this book to help cleanse his his temples. And you know, we are his temples, so it's it's that. But it shares my story, it shares um, you know, my husband, it shares mine and my husband's testimony, and is I pray is an encouragement for for that. But it's more like when we understand our covenant with the Lord as his bride, it literally changes every relationship in our life. And so through covenant with him, then we learn how to have covenant with people, whether it be spouse and children and the body of Christ, because we are one. So that's the book, you know, that's the book. It's to help us better understand our covenant with Christ and the Father, and then let every other relationship, especially with spouses, first like that's pri prior, that's a priority in this book, but to let everything else um be shifted from understanding covenant. So those are the books. Um, I have another one that I was a co-author with 40 other women, I think it was 40. Uh, it's called Daughters of Destiny. That one's also on Amazon.

SPEAKER_01: 1:34:02

But beautiful, yeah. And your your album is available on all the places too.

SPEAKER_02: 1:34:09

So one of them is The Secret Place, the the raw one that the Lord gave me on Prayer Mountain. That one is available um on iTunes, on uh just I think everywhere, Spotify. Um, and then I have another one that I have not re re-released, like it had been out for a long time. And um I just I don't know, I didn't I didn't release it or I didn't it like expired, that's what I'm trying to say. So I have to I have to release that one in God's timing. So you'll refire it at some point, exactly.

SPEAKER_01: 1:34:43

Yes, beautiful that being so out of the song on the song or the album The Secret Place, which song like would you say somebody needs to hear today?

SPEAKER_02: 1:34:58

I would say I feel like if they were to listen to maybe eight, nine, or ten. Um so eight is the satisfied, it's called satisfied, it's a devotional that gives the scripture. Number nine is the actual song satisfied, and then um, well, ten is the the it's Abba's heart, is what the title is, and that gives the devotional, and 11 is the actual song, Abba's heart. And I feel like understanding what Jesus did, that the Father's heart is fully satisfied in the sacrifice of Jesus Christ, that it literally strips away all of the stress and guilt that religion tries to make us accomplish in our own efforts. Like Jesus was, he is the tithe. Jesus is the first fruits, Jesus is the fulfillment of everything that the body of Christ is responsible for giving to the Father, if that makes sense. So Jesus has fulfilled all of that. Now we get to live in it and overflow from his life and from his sacrifice. Like this is where our righteousness comes from. This is where just everything, you know, everything happens, life happens, forgiveness, redemption, sanctification, all the things, purification. Um, so I would hope that that's what they would receive from things.

SPEAKER_01: 1:36:22

Beautiful. Well, you are amazing. I am so thankful to have connected with you and have you on today. Um, I would just love for you to share, like, you know, as I I do this for the one, and I know you do so much for the one as well. If you could just kind of get in your mind this one that's listening in today, is there any other words of encouragement or um any words of knowledge that you'd want to speak over them? And would you pray us out today? Absolutely.

SPEAKER_02: 1:36:48

So I I feel the necessity to tell you, whoever is listening, take the first step. And every time you think that even because you may maybe have finished an assignment or something like that, take another step. Don't ever stop because there's so much more that God wants to reveal about Himself in your very walk with Him. So, but it starts with the very first step. So I know it feels like a giant leap of faith, and very much how I felt all of the fear of this is crazy, absolutely crazy in this world. I want to tell you to just jump, just go and let the Lord catch you. He will catch you, he will not leave you, he will not abandon you, he will not let you fall. You will not be ashamed when your trust is in the Lord. So, with that, Father God, I come before your throne of grace, Lord, to thank you, to praise you, and to worship you, Lord God. You're so good, so holy. Your loving kindness, Lord God, lasts for generations. And I just thank you. Thank you. I thank you for the intimacy, thank you for the oneness. I thank you for the one person who's gonna listen. And I thank you that right now you're encouraging their heart. You're just, oh, your hands are wide open, your arms are wide open to say, let's go on an adventure together. Don't worry, I will work out all the details. I just want your yes. I pray, Lord God, that they would say yes, even if it's a whisper in their heart. And I thank you for that. Thank you for you, you listen, you listen, you love the whispers of our heart, Lord God. Um, thank you so much for Kristen. Thank you for her obedience, Lord God. And I just speak so many blessings and breakthrough over her life and what she does, Lord God. This holy digital scribing, Lord God, recording important stories. Your story, Lord God, so much more than our lives. It's your story and your hand that you are living and you are active, and you are demonstrating your glory through our simple clay vessels, Lord God. But this is what you call treasure, and this is the gold that you're bringing forth. These acts of obedience, these acts of faith and this zeal and this passion for you, Lord God. I pray that all that she does ignite a fire that is unstoppable, Lord Jesus, in the ears and the hearts, and the souls and the minds of those who listen, Lord God. In the mighty name of Jesus, I thank you for all this time. I thank you that your name is glorified. Thank you for all that you've done and all that you're doing and all that you will do. I thank you for you being the master of logistics, the king of all things. We glorify you, we worship you. And it's such an honor and a privilege to serve you and to love you and to know you and your people in Jesus' mighty name. Amen.

SPEAKER_01: 1:40:08

Amen. Well, thank you for being on. Thank you for being a brave voice who is setting so many free. I am going to close with the hope unlocked anchoring verse, which is May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace and believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope. That's Romans 15, 13. So I'll be back with another episode next week. Thank you, listeners, and thank you, Danae. Bye bye.